...and at 37 weeks, I am now two stone heavier than I was then. Which is a grand total of FOUR and a half stone since I fell pregnant. I've gone from 11.5 to 16.2 in total.
I promised myself I wouldn't do this.
I have a huge problem with binge/comfort eating and I promised myself I wouldn't carry it on in pregnancy. But I've been under so much pressure. Problems with dh, with ds father, with family, worrying about mode of delivery - it's all taken it's toll and I have turned to food everyday.
Background is, I was always obese until my first pregnancy in my early 20s. HG lefts lighter at the end of pregnancy than a the start and by the time ds was 18 months, I was my goal wieght of 9 and a half stone and a size 8, which I managed to stay around for ten years. I was really careful and ten stone was my cut off and of I neared it, I would be very careful for a few weeks until it was off again.
I've had a horrendous three years with divorce and miscarriages so I once again turned to comfort eating which left me at 11 and a half stone during that time.
I weighed myself today (37 weeks) and I am 16 stone. I am so ashamed that I have let my self get like this. This is despite having sickness again!
I don't know what the point of my post is, but I am just so upset with myself and now I am worrying about c section complications (have one planned for week after next) because of my weight.