Wish I could um-impregnate myself. 34 weeks.

[weebigmamma]

I hate being pregnant. I don't want to do this any more. I don't want to have a baby in 5 weeks time. I have high blood pressure, gestational diabetes, I can't sleep, I have restless legs, I've had heartburn since October, I can't cope with people's endless bloody comments on my size, my mother in law is a bitch, I have to have a section and I'm fat so the recovery will be awful, the baby is breech and I can hardly walk, I have career opportunities that I now can't take and we have no money and the baby's not even here yet. Honestly, I wish I could go to bed and not wake up but I can't even sleep longer than an hour at a time.

Thank you! I feel like having a little cry, everyone's been so brilliant! I really needed to hear that Angela. Thanks so much. Baby has apparently turned the right way round but has just winded me again- the pain! lol. xx

Yes my scar is same place, just below hairline. You'll probably get all this info if planned section but you have to take off all jewellery and nail varnish etc (cos obviously you've had time to be pampering yourself and able to reach your toes...). I don't do anything to my hair below and they just shave off the top bit ready for the incision - they obviously do it all the time and I didn't feel conscious about it at all!!!

Caesarean scar will be low down and just below the hairline. Like this.

I'm not overweight but I bounced back from two CS very quickly. I've known women of all sorts of different sizes have different recoveries. But with an elcs, if you look after yourself, take pain relief as you need it and listen to your body, the recovery can be straightforward. And a heck of a lot more comfortable than being heavily pregnant oftentimes.

Just to pick up on one thing though, do NOT aim a hairdryer at your wound. Hairdryers harbour a lot of germs (hot, dark space) and you do not want them blown all over a healing wound. Allowing the wound to air dry and lying with it exposed to the air is good advice. A pad inside your knickers over the wound can also help.

Best of luck to you. You sound so tired and fed up but it won't be forever.

I didnt have a CS but oh my god I felt sooooo much better the day after the birth than the weeks before it! No more pain, no needing the loo every 10 minutes, no heartburn and no being sick!

I remember telling my friend (poor woman was due 2 weeks before me and ended upgiving birth 2 weeks after me) that if i was on a bus I'd give up my seat for a pregnant woman without a second thought - despite having a newborn in a sling. Thats how much I felt better after!

Also your hormones kick in so you can deal with the first few weeks of sleep deprivation (I hit a wall when DS was 4 weeks and had to stop going out everyday)

I've never had a CS but I have assisted at a good number as a student.

An elective section is a really lovely chilled affair. It is relaxed and friendly, you might get to choose the music if there's something you'd like to listen to, the anaesthetist can take their time over getting the spinal in the right place as there's not the panic about the baby, you're not tired and exhausted after spending the last 24 hours in labour and as a result you'll recover much more quickly.

(Also omeprazole is wonderful. It transformed things for me during the last few months of my last pregnancy!)

Thanks again everyone! It is good to know about where the cut is made. I thought it would be higher than that and even on the crease below my bump, which would be really awkward to try and keep dry. So great to hear everyone's stories. Yes, I think the tiredness is making everything seem worse and causing me to worry (today's worry: a friend keeps telling me to 'count the (bloody) kicks' and today I said 'I don't have enough fingers or toes- he kicks the crap out of me constantly' and she replied that a change in movement either way can be dangerous. So now I'm panicking that the baby is going nuts because something is wrong and he's got the cord stuck around his neck or something. I should probably stay off facebook.... lol)