Struggling to keep a grip

[StillPukin]

I posted earlier this week that I was likely to be induced this weekend and I'm upset about it.
I'm currently 41 + 4 and going into hospital tomorrow (which was the absolute last thing I wanted) to be induced, if it doesn't work, same again Sunday, if that doesn't work, c-section on Monday and I am SO scared it's ridiculous.
The sad thing is, its only just dawned on my that I will be meeting my little baby by the end of this weekend - I've been so consumed with dread that I'd forgotten this little fact . We've been trying for a baby for years and have been so excited about it but like I said, I'd kind of forgotten about it.
I'm sorry to moan so much, I know many people have to go through this but I still can't help crying every time I think about going into hospital.

what is it you are scared of? Try to focus on getting your boy out safe and well. Medical intervention isn't great if you have been very focused on a natural birth but it will prevent any more issues. and as you said, you will have ylur baby by mo.day

There's a couple of things I'm scared of;
the hospital stay (I had my DS there and it was awful, utterly filthy and unhelpful/non-existent staff)
And the medical intervention, I've heard an induced labour can be a lot more painful than a natural one and the thought of a c-section sends me into a sheer panic.
Thank you for your reply and support, I'm really trying to focus on the baby x