So far so good only found out New Year's Eve about pregnancy so far everything has been fine other than the cramp which of course is due to uterus expanding once again. Doctors appointment tomorrow so hopefully midwife soon to be sorted but I keep having this nagging in my head telling me not to get to excited. 2009 I had my first miscarriage, I had 2 boys already but somehow was so excited for another but had been bleeding from week 5 to week 7 until the day before my follow up scan I realised the baby had gone. It sent me into a downward spiral I refused to talk to family and friends and I cried all the time my partners mum even selfishly dumped her newborn grandson in my arms although my partner had told her not to because I was still upset due to our loss but within a few weeks I had pregnancy symptoms again and learned I was in fact pregnant giving birth in 2010 to healthy baby boy. Then in 2011 it happened again but a few weeks later I was once again pregnant carrying full term 2012 another healthy boy. So now you can see my problem, I am so desperate to know it's all going to be okay. I don't know wether to ask doctor for early scan for my own peace of mind, I just feel so jinxed because of my previous miscarriages before I've carried full term. I'm just wondering if this has happened to many others?