23+6 and still waiting for the second trimester energy boost. Getting really fed up with people asking how the pregnancy is going, because nobody wants to hear "well I can barely walk, the baby is playing football with my bladder, my skin is red, itchy and covered in painful spots, I'm still being sick everyday and pissing myself at the same time and I can't get through a day without a huge nap, but otherwise great!" so I just grit my teeth and say "really well thank you".
Somebody commented the other day that I'm waddling when I walk, even though I'm "not pregnant enough" to need to waddle. Well actually my pelvis feels like it's disintegrating and an ungainly waddle is the only way I can walk that feels even slightly comfortable.
What is it about pregnancy anyway that immediately makes your body and actions public property to be commented on at will?!
You can't talk to anybody about how you really feel because you're supposed to be happy and grateful when all you really want is for the next few months to disappear and for it to all be over, so you just end up feeling hopelessly inadequate. When you do break down with pain, frustration and sheer exhaustion it's just put down to hormones, because what you really need is for your feelings to be invalidated even further.
This is my first pregnancy. When I told my mum she went on and on about how easy her pregnancies were, how she loved being pregnant and she was sure I'd take after her and breeze through it. Bullshit.
And now I feel bad because it could be a whole lot worse.
Sorry for the rant, I think I needed it. I am very fed up today!