Starting to think 'oh god what have I done?'

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36 weeks today and so fed up - am soo ready for this baby to come, although I know in reality he needs a bit longer to cook so am trying not to get too excited everytime I get a bit of back ache/slightly painful BH.

Am also starting to panic about the future. Baby was unplanned (but is very much wanted) and am starting to wonder what the fuck I've got myself into.
This tiny human being is going to be reliant on me. I keep having dreams where I drop/forget to feed the baby etc etc. I'm terrified!

There's no going back now (although I don't think I'd send the baby back even if I had the choice, judging by how much I panic and run off to the maternity unit everytime baby's movements decrease ever so slightly ) but it terrifies me that I'm about to have a baby. Anyone else feeling the same thing? Am also scared this makes me a crap mum before it's even began :(

I felt I'd get it all wrong each time. I think it's a sign you're actually ready to take on the challenges and responsibilities. You're aware of them. You're thinking about it all. Your child is already the centre of your world. Lucky kid x

Congratulations on your pregnancy. I think a bit of fear at the later stages of pregnancy is normal. I felt the same before DD was born last month and she is my 3rd child. Don't worry; as soon as you see your new baby all your fears will disappear; cliched but very true, in my case anyway. You will be great, just go with the flow; nobody knows how to be a mother, it just happens and most mothers get it right most of the time!

Thank you both. Fell pregnant at a relatively young age so my friends keep saying stuff like 'oh don't you wish you could come out with us?' etc and I just think no I don't, I just want my baby here already!

Oh thank god OP, someone feels the same as I do! I'm starting to get increasingly anxious as I'm nearly 34 weeks and wondering WTF I'm doing and is it the right thing etc. I've had a relatively easy pregnancy (so far) but I don't want to get complacent as part of me wonders if that might mean a difficult labour. Logically I know there's no connection between the two but I do err on the side of being a worrier. Childbirth frankly terrifies me, especially with some of the stories I've read on MN of horrendous tears and prolapses etc, as well as scary stories about hospitals. Reading those stories is like looking at the sun - I know I shouldn't but I keep doing it anyway!

Cariad I feel exactly the same - I just can't keep away from the horror stories!
I've also had a relatively easy pregnancy so far so now feel like I'm waiting for something to go wrong.
The thing I keep remembering to myself about childbirth is that our bodies are made to do it, women have been doing it for thousands of years and if it was really that bad people wouldn't do it repeatedly. Sounds stupid but when I'm about and about and I see people with prams/children I think to myself 'well that lady over there has most likely done it, so has that lady there, my mum's done it, my nana's done it so it can't really be that bad can it?'
Good luck for the rest of your pregnancy! :)

Thanks, same to you :) I was speaking to my mum about it yesterday and she said she didn't have difficult labours (her pregnancies were a different story) and that she thinks part of it was because she didn't know much about the process of childbirth. There was no Google around back then mad sometimes I think knowing too much is not necessarily a good thing! I'm doing an antenatal hypnotherapy course in a week or so to see if it'll help calm my fears.

HI OP i think its normal to feel over whelmed. We planned for our baby but when I could struck down with HG sickness I totally regretted and woundered what I'd got my self in to. I some times find work stressful and then begin panicking think omg if I'm getting stressed over silly things how will I cope with a baby.
I'm so excited for my little boy to get here but scared at the same time.

This is my first and I don't have much experince with children my sister and I were the baby's of the family so never had much interactin with kids.

I hope I'll be a good mum. Think its part off us being good parents worrying if we will be good enough. If that's makes sense

Planned or unplanned we are mothers it's our job to worry and that worry doesn't go away it just gets worse and worse as our children grow up and become more and more in control of they're own lives!! The thought of my safe and protected little baby growing up meeting boys etc terrifies me even more as we've all been there ourselves, but God forbid our children ever going there!!! This is my first and I have never changed a nappy in my life and can't even bear to think of the sleepless nights but I just know after going through childbirth (easy or difficult) I'll want what's best for my baby and the motherly instincts will kick in - I hope, I pray!!!!

Congrats on your pregnancy!I'm on DC3 and find myself worrying I'll drop the baby or damage it in some way. I'm 35 weeks now and thought I might not get these worries this time, but it seems part of preparation for birth!

You sound like you'll be a lovely Mum.