Feeling melancholy.

[Writerwannabe83]

Does anyone else have days where they just don't feel happy and excited?

I haven't had the easiest pregnancy (currently 26 weeks) and haven't been at work for 14 weeks and can't go back either. I'm fed up of being stuck in my house. My health is deteriorating, I'm on tablets that may be risky to the baby and I just feel fed up. Every day is merging into the next one. My social life has vanished, I miss being able to go out and do fun stuff with my friends and husband, I'm tired of looking at the same four walls.

Two people don't call me by my name anymore - they call me 'fatty' - I'm scared that I'm going to hit them next time they do it.

I'm not sleeping, I'm just exhausted - maybe getting 4 hours a night.

Yesterday I had an absolute meltdown in the ASDA car-park. My husband had phoned me and as soon as he asked if I was ok the tears just started. I was crying so much I couldn't even talk. It was ridiculous. I didn't even know why I was crying. He told me to just come back home (and forget the shopping) and I then had anther meltdown when I got home.

I don't know - I just feel so nonchalant. I'm happy to be pregnant, we are very excited about the baby but some days I just feel so, I don't know, unenthused by everything.

I thought pregnancy was supposed to be an amazing period of your life, something wonderful and magical. Even feeling him kick isn't cheering me up lately

Hi
I can sympathize. Yes, I'm happy to be pregnant but...have spent most of this pregnancy feeling physically crap and emotionally/psychologically on the brink of losing it.
I'd given up on the idea of ever having children (after years of fertility treatment and miscarriages) so this one came out of the blue. I feel like I should be jumping around with joy but the fact that I've been bleeding on and off since 6 and a half weeks means that even if I had the energy to jump around I'd be scared to. The fear has made me sort of numb. I previously suffered quite badly with depression but managed it through being very physically active, this enforced taking things easy means that there are days when I can feel the depression sneaking back in.
I haven't bought a single thing for the baby and have made no preparations as it feels though it would be tempting fate. I'm not sure whether or not I'll be having a c-section or vaginal birth as it will depend on what my care team decides at around 32 weeks. I feel like I'm in a constant state of limbo. I'm now coming up to 24 weeks and just hoping that something will change when I hit the third trimester.
Sorry for the ramble, but just wanted to say you're not alone xx

It's a difficult time especially if you're unwell. So sorry to read you're going through this.

I can't wait for this pregnancy to be over. I'm not enjoying it at all.