Ok, so I am now 40 + 6 and have my midwife appointment today where she said she would offer a sweep.
I wasn't going to accept and was going to wait until next week's appointment before having any sweep/ intervention.
Just looked at the dates though and there wouldn't be opportunity to have a sweep next week (due to midwife only being available on Thurs) before they would actually have me booked in for an induction. 
I have my heart set on a water birth and although I know I do have to be flexible, I've been told if I have an induction there is no way.
. I know if I don't have the sweep and it goes to induction I will always end up wondering what if...
Sorry for the long ramble. I'm literally terrified to have it done and I guess realistically for the impending childbirth. I can just feel it all snowballing and am feeling more and more worried when I thought I was looking forward to it/prepared. I'm scared that if it is really painful its going to make me even more anxious about coping with the birth itself.
I'm going to take some paracetamol before I walk down and then make a gut descision when I'm offered.
DP has booked the afternoon off work so he can come with me but I just feel so out of control, pathetic and want to cry. 