Calming my pregnancy rage!

[everythinghippie29]

Just found out a work placement I was hoping to start next year after mat leave is no longer in place so I have to reapply. I'm disappointed but kinda knew it would happen.

I'm 4 days overdue, have acid reflux, bad back, itchy pregnancy rash and am generally miserable as hell.

Just had a message from a male friend of mine telling me to 'Cheer up' going in to say how he's 'laid up with his bad back' and that I'm probably more mobile than him!?

I know its probably just hormones but I am now in a rage of testicle crushing proportions. Arggghhhhhh.

I want to smash things...anyone have any advice on how to bring down my rocketing anger levels!

None. None whatsoever. When someone comes along with some decent advice on getting the angries out can you purleez pass it on! throws wine glass (with no bloody wine in it as that's not allowed ohhh no) against the wall and stamps foot in extremely childish manner

??

I'm eating crackers with real butter and Stilton on. Doesn't help with the rage as such, but it's a pleasant distraction.

My rage was somewhat vented at a bloke delivering a UKIP Surrey newspaper earlier. That helped.

I hate the rage. Anyone else find it comes in a cycle.. the start each time being roughly the same length as your regular period cycle? I'm sure our bodies still have similar hormone surges each month, just without the period.. and the fact we're pregnant just adds to the hormones making the rage even more so!

It's awful because you KNOW you are being unreasonable but damn there is nothing you can do. Even worse when it is reasonable to be angry, then hell hath no fury. Weirdly at other times I can be far too laid back - for instance I could be late to pick up the DC and somebody is blocking the road and I'll be all "oh well, must be important for them to be there, nothing I can do.." and then at another time, well, it's not pretty.

I just hate that I keep finding myself picking fights and getting involved in heated discussions - this is not me at all as I am normally very diplomatic and a peacemaker and hate confrontation!! And the children get the rough end of the stick (not literally!!) more too..

I also find the rage scary for being so random. But at the same time, it seems totally reasonable a lot of the time. I mean, who WOULDN'T want to push DH's face through a cheese grater because I've been writing Xmas cards all day and have been unable to address some of the ones for his side of the family because they have moved this year and I KNOW he has the new addresses but HE HAS NOT UPDATED THE ADDRESS BOOK.

Ooh I wish I'd had a UKIP caller that would have been fun!

I've calmed a little now but god I was seething earlier. Poor DP is unfortunately getting the brunt of it. I had a cold caller looking to speak to Mrs DP...I snarled that there was no 'Mrs' DP and gold them my name and that either they could accept we were living in sin and talk to me or buggar off, I'm usually unfailingly polite to everyone on the phone!

I think I should stay indoors away from people until baby arrives now!

I, apparently am in 'attack mode' I like to think of it as the opposite of 'if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all!'. Essentially I am
kindly pointing out where he has failed me on every level and in every way. I don't think it's unfair either, I think I'm giving him a chance to improve, redeem himself and 'save our relationship' ... until I have my independence back and can leave the bastard
I've also told him I won't forget any of it. Not one single transgression.
Useless specimen that he is.
Poor darling is tired too on top of it as it's hard to work full time and then help out with DC's in te evening for 30 minutes or so, I have it easy looking after the other two all day don't you know. Especially when the SPD is worst, oh wait is that a contraction you say? Well bye I have an appointment. Call me if the consultant wants to transfer you, I'll leave the baby with you if that's ok, you're in a hospital after all.
Wanker!
Thank you for listening to my rant, I'll stop now as I may never if I don't!!!

Hah the rage has gone and I'm all a glow with the joys of imminent motherhood

I vented some rage at the wanktards on the tube today who kept pushing me and elbowing my stomach even after they saw my badge and little bump! I'm only 18 weeks so it is small but with my coat on it is noticeable so I don't know what they thought they were doing. Add to that my lower back is killing me and I spent the day at work running between the toilet and bending over small children, needless to say I had some built up rage that needed out lol I want a magic wand to make all the rubbish bits go away

39+4 here and I feel you all on the rage.

Can you imagine the Virgin Mary on the way to Bethlehem? Having to ride on a fucking donkey at 39 weeks pregnant and no fucking room booked when they arrive? It has never occurred to me until now how bloody furious she would have been about it.

That thought has cheered me right up after what I've just found in 'D'P's bag from when he stayed at his mates for a week after an argument we had. Foul, disgusting pig. Can I even call him a pig on here?

I'm furiously angry with his little habit! At his mates house! This bag has been there for about 4 months too. WTAF!

If I posted the text I just sent on here I'd be reported for harassment I'm sure. He is ignoring it of course as I'm 'being nasty'. Yes, yes I probably am not being terribly diplomatic but under the circumstances I don't want to be dealing with any of it.

Suffice to say he can do his own laundry/dinner/everything.

OMG I am also very argumentative at the moment and keep getting into silly debates! I blame the rage... my DM and MIL seem to be irritating me at the moment so I try to avoid talking to them too much because I don't want to snap at them and feel mean later on!!

I've gotten really protective over my house ('nest') too - hate people just walking in without knocking (DP's and PILs have always done this but at the moment its making me wild with rage!) GET OUT OF MY F*ING NEST!!!

I wish I could go and live in a secret cosy little cottage somewhere where no one knows where I live and I can seethe in private!!! :-)

Ginwitch go on then, what was in the bag...?!

Pants, a missing browsing history and shattered illusions! I think I found the truth underneath the pants but I'm only guessing it's a third of it. Sigh. And various other foul smelling laundry things.

I'm apparently mad and imagining it all and need to stop playing the amateur detective theory game I apparently do too. I could be entirely wrong of course and making horribly false accusations...but going on years of 'ohhhhh darling I love you but you are a bit mad sometimes and jump to conclusions' (I obviously find out I'm right later!) I am just going to call it exactly how it is.

I'm over reacting most likely but after the the bullshit he's throw at me this week I have zero tolerance and this is the final indignation!

I'm going to go and look for an oxytocin drip somewhere now

I feel very naughty writing that online
btw! I'm being a terrible person today but I'm finding it hard to care somehow.

O_o

Eek!