Could do with a shake and a handhold please

[scater]

Hi all
Was feeling a bit odd this morning and had some stinging tummy pains in the night so did a cheapy test, bfp! Very faint so did another and then an early detector, definite line though faint.

Problem is our daughter was stillborn in April 2012 and this is only month two of trying after waiting until we were sure we could take it.

I flipped out a bit this morning, spoke to doctor and got the ball rolling with haematology consultant to get blood thinning injections.

To be honest I am just a bit pissed off. I hate that I couldn't wait a week or so and wonder if I might be pregnant. By my calculations I am not quite four weeks gone. So much could go wrong that I wouldn't have even known about if I didn't test so early.

Will have to tell dh this evening and I feel bad that he has to take all the early stress too.

Can someone just tell me what will be will be and to get over myself please.

You are so not alone with this. It's so easy for people to say, don't test until you are late etc but not testing makes you very anxious as well.

You will stress out, that's natural but forewarned is forearmed, see you've already got you're injections sorted so you're being practical. I think you'd have freaked if you hadn't tested so it makes no difference. I'm sure, considering what you've been through, you'll be given good care and some early reassurance scans.

I was a week late last year and didn't test and then had a very unpleasant AF which was very short. I may not have tested but I'm still convinced I was pregnant and miscarried. Not having done the test didn't make it any better.

The following month I got pregnant and tested. If I hadn't of done the test that time I would have missed the fact I was pregnant as I bled 4 days later and I would have thought it was a normal period. It wasn't and was a symptom of my ectopic pregnancy. Testing early very possibly saved my life even though it was a crap outcome.

I'm now 11 weeks pregnant and managed to leave it until the day I was due on to test this time. I panicked about whether it would all work out etc but so far so good and today when my sister emailed me to say I must be stressing out about the 12 week scan I managed to tell her that I wasn't particularly and to quote you 'what will be will be'.

You'll get there, it will be an anxious pregnancy but that's completely normal after what you've been through. Give yourself a break and if you can, allow yourself a small moment to feel happy that you got your BFP.

By no means do u need to 'get over yourself' my gosh u have experienced a major trauma in your life. I am so so sorry u lost your daughter.

Congratulations on your pregnancy and I think u are totally right to feel the way u do, of course u are going to worry but u have done right with getting things going in regards to your care for the pregnancy.

It is easy for someone looking in to say this but I do hope u and your hubby can enjoy your pregnancy as it is wonderful news. I wish u all the best for your pregnancy and take care of yourself both physically and emotionally x

Thanks guys, you are right, just need to try and chill out a bit.