I just feel so alone and I need someone to talk to. I was in a relationship for 9 years and deeply in love, but my partner died of a sudden heart attack. I deeply regretted not having children with him and was terrified that I never would. 3 years later, still grieving, but found myself in a very unstable relationship with a man who unknown to me seems to have some serious mental health problems (schizophrenia?). I knew it wasn't right, but I suppose I have been vulnerable. We had an argument and broke up, but then my period was late and just got a positive test this morning. I feel so confused. I should be over the moon, but I am in a very bad place financially, I am terrified about a man like that being in my child's life, and I know that my parents (who are lovely, but old fashioned) will be extremely shocked and upset by this news. I didn't even tell anyone I was with this guy, because of the guilt I felt over my partner who died. I'm an emotional wreck and I just needed to get this off my chest.