Worried something is going to go wrong.

[Lotta10]

I am due in 3 days, my baby is measuring big and I am carrying twice as much fluid as I should be. The doctors want to induce me the day after my due date if I haven't gone into labour before and I am having a sweep to try to get things going tomorrow. I want to go into labour naturally if I can but will be induced Sunday if they think I should.
The biggest thing worrying me at the moment is I just have this overwhelming feeling that I will not be coming home with my baby... I genuinely feel like I might not come home again, they are worried I won't be able to deliver the baby because of its size and they have said I am at higher risk of placenta rupturing because of my waters. I feel like either me or this baby might not be coming home... I know it is probably anxiety but I can't shake it.
I've not had the easiest pregnancy, my body hasn't coped very well and I am measuring 48 cm.
My pelvis is not aligned, I have POTs which effects my heart rate & breathing. All manageable... However I don't feel right.
I am worried something might happen to the baby or me.. I've been told I am at higher risk of needing a blood transfusion because I am anaemic as well.
I know I sound stupid but I just have this sense of foreboding and I can't shake it. It's more than just being scared, I feel like the clock is ticking and that something bad is going to happen. I don't know what to do.

I felt exactly the same way as you! I had a BMI of 40+, high blood pressure, anaemia, water retention, bleeding and I was measuring 50.

I had a beautiful delivery and I had a healthy baby boy, I recovered from the birth in a couple of days. You will meet your baby soon and you will be saying what I have to you to others.

It's natural to worry, I would be thinking all the same things as you if I'd been told what you have. Try to think positive (as hard as it is). Or try not to think of birth at all I'm sure all will be ok though. (Big mumsnetty hug x)

Thank you. I hope you are right, thing have been so hard.. I've had a lot of struggles aside from the pregnancy over the 9 months so a lot if anxiety in general and I guess I am just used to things going wrong now... I just can't seem to shake it. I just want to be coming through my door with my baby in my arms and know that they are ok.

I've heard a sense of 'foreboding' or 'impending doom' is quite common just before you go into labour, so fingers crossed! Hope it all goes really well for you, it's very natural to be apprehensive at this stage.

If you have any sense that something is not right, get yourself to the Day Assessment Unit and just tell them. I found in late pregnancy they will listen to your concerns, check all the vital things or scan - to put your mins at rest if nothing else.