Pregnant and not sure how I feel

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I have two DDs aged 8 and 4 just started back at work, and we were ridiculously stupid and I find myself nearly 40 and pregnant. We are just doing up our house, we were planning our lovely life with our two children, I have no idea if I could even cope with another.

DH says he will go with what I decide, but I know that he really wanted three, but I wanted to stop at two (so why did I allow us to be so stupid?) I am worried, about what it would do to us if I decided to terminate, I am worried about what it would do to us if we had it. I have miscarried early on in pregancy several times, and I am shamefully hoping this will happen again.

First day of LMP 5/9/2013 so I have time but god not sure I can go down that route.

My heart goes out to you. I'm sorry I can't share any useful experience. All I can suggest is to give yourself a bit of breathing space, even just a few days, instead of focusing on the issue intensively. I don't think we make better choices when we replay an issue in our heads, we just recycle the same arguments over and over. With such an emotional issue, it may just take a small change somewhere to suddenly make it clear to you what you want to do. Good luck.

Hun I'm a believer of women's choice,whether by mistake or not. It sounds like uve already made ur mind up n ur looking for reassurance from other ppl,do what is right for ur family chic xx

Thank you, I have not totally made up my mind, I just know that my 8 year old loves the time that I spend with her, and is already jealous of her little sister. My husband goes away for two weeks at a time fairly regularly and I already feel stretched to breaking point (I am not one of those laid back mums). On the other hand things happen for a reason.

Difficult choices to make, DH as I said says he will go with what I decide.