This is going to seem so daft but I've a mw appointment in like 8 hours and I know they need to take bloods which I'm really nervous about 
Usually I'm okay with it, I don't really like needles but I just get on with it...I have a tattoo so clearly I don't really hate needles or anything lol. It stings a little going in but once the needle is in place I can look at it and see the blood coming out I've no problem with that (DH does though
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The problem is more about last time they took bloods...at my booking appointment (11+5) they had difficulty taking it and sent in a doc instead of mw, it came out really slowly but she managed it. Then we moved house, so I had to have a new booking appointment in the new area and they insisted on doing the bloods again (c.18wks)...it's this experience I'm working myself up about:
So I told the mw that they had previously had difficulty but she didn't seem to be bothered. The trainee mw was doing it, found a vein and had a go, the tiniest bit of blood came out and it was so slow they would have been there all day. So they sent for the phlebotomist (increased my vocabulary that day, apparently she specialised in taking blood lol). They sat saying if she couldn't do it they'd have to get the anaesthesiologist which did concern me a bit I won't lie. The phlebotomist tried the other arm that they hadn't tried and got no where, actually binning the tubes as so little was coming out. They had me lay on this bed and sat feeling around different places for a vein, asking if I've ever had blood taken from the back of my hand. Apparently the vein they found was really good but when they put the needle in it retracts or collapses or something I didn't quite listen by this point
. In the end they managed to get half a tube from the usual spot on your arm (so the 3rd time they'd put a needle in me) and said that would have to do. There's now a note on my record saying it's "very hard" and that they should always use this smaller needle type apparently used on babies and small children so I have to go to the hospital not gps for it
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Oh and when getting the bit of blood they managed to get the phlebotomist had to keep pushing the needle in to keep it flowing so it was really uncomfortable
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The next appointment I had I saw the same mw (actually rarely happens up here) and she saw the bit on my notes about blood and said "I remember you!" And made out as if I made this big fuss which I actually really didn't so that just irritated me
. And both arms were quite bruised for ages after
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So now at 13.40 I'm due back in and playing the whole thing back I just don't want to go, I'm usually okay with these things but I feel they just made the whole thing an ordeal last time
. I really don't want the same mw again as I feel part of the problem was her attitude and I don't think she will help matters. Also I really really don't want it from the back of my hand, I just don't think I could manage that, I'm okay but I have my limits and that is it lol!
I'm also a worrier due to an anxiety disorder so I get worried when these things happen, why can't my blood just come out like normal people's does?! I start to wonder if it's because something is wrong with me 
Oh and DH is really ill at the minute and can barely walk but he's insisting on coming with me because he knows I'm worried but I am also really worried about him trying to walk there and I just so want to cancel/reschedule
...I know I can't and I have to go and I'm sure I sound like such a wuss and should just get on with it but I just needed to get it off of my chest, with DH being unwell I don't want to whine to him. I just hope it goes better than last time...