Ive never been on a forum before, so bear with me. I'm 32 weeks pregnant, with a 2 year old boy at home, a full time job and a partner. When I got pregnant we were over the moon, me and my partner had been together before and sadly lost 2 babies together. My little boys father is a different man so my partner is very new to family life bless him. Anyways, the 20 week scan came and it turned out to be another little boy, however the hospital said there was something showing on the scan that "wasn't right" we waited to see a specialist and it turned out that our baby has transposition of the great arteries, and a hole in the heart. We were devastated, petrified and this is how I feel lost. My partner has taken to the optimistic way of thinking, we can get our baby fixed and he will recover and we will bring him home. I know the success rate of this operation is 95% thats with the hole in the heart aswell, I feel like I shouldn't complain and that I should be really happy that its treatable but I can't stop thinking "what if?" I've got a load of other issues going on aswell like my quite literally psychotic sister has been stealing from the family, she was my childcare however she wasn't looking after my little boy properly so I had to tell her to go away basically however she keeps popping up and getting to me, my little boys father has threatened legal action because I don't want him seeing our son as he's a self confessed alcoholic and doesn't put in any effort with Robert (my boy), the management at my work place has become a joke, its impossible to go into the office and do your job because something is always going wrong, I was put on sick leave by my GP due to stress which makes me feel insane, I have panic attacks due to all this going on so I'm away from work until my maternity leave comes to an end, I've enrolled Robert into nursery as of 5th September which is going to be an emotional rollercoaster. I'm sorry for whoever reads this, I guess I'm using this website as a way to talk without upsetting my partner. We keep arguing and biting at eachother, we find out on the 19th September exactly what the procedure is going to be, right now we know nothing which is irritating to be honest, so at 36 weeks I'm going to get all my answers at once and I know for a fact it's going to be too much, I know I'm being taken into hospital 1 week early as Robert came a week early, so that's 3 weeks to prepare for a new baby, a major operation, putting my trust into strangers (I know these people are specialists but that's how I see it most times) and hope they fix my baby. I don't even know what to say to my partner anymore, things are like a minefield at the moment, being careful of how and when to talk about our baby together. It's killing me every day knowing what's going to happen, and the fact I can't do anything now is the most frustrating. I'm rambling now but if anyone has been in a situation similar please share some advice, I'd appreciate it so much.
Milly