Im scared & feel like running away!

[Shellywelly1973]

I've got my 12 week scan tomorrow morning. Im terrified. The last time i had a 12 week scan the baby had died.

Im booked in for a CVS on Thursday, depending on the screening results.

Im scared the baby will be dead but Im also scared the baby will have something wrong with it.

Its my 6th dc so if the baby isn't ok i don't think i can continue with the pregnancy. I already have a Ds with SN.

I want to run away. I've had an appointment at the hospital today, tomorrow morning&possibly Thursday. Im sick of the place! I really can't express how scared i am. I don't know how Im going to keep it together tomorrow...

It's horrible isn't it. I had the same thing - a 12 week scan which revealed a missed miscarriage. Would it help to meet someone afterwards? Can your DP go with you to the scan? Can you promise yourself a small treat/break straight after regardless, something else to look forward to on the same day? I hope it goes well.

Ds was sent home sick from school so dp won't be able to come now. Normally Mil helps but she is in hospital at the moment.

I don't have any close friends in London. No one apart from dp knows Im pregnant as i havn't expected this to be a successful pregnancy.

I have to go straight back to work, its my last week. I leave on Friday. I really wanted the scans& CVS done last week as Im so stressed now due to the amount of appointments this week, work its& dc.

I've actually thought about not going! I wish i could fast forward a week...

Where in London are you and what time is your app? If you live near to me I would go with you if it was after 11.30.

Sorry I know that sounds totally stalker like but sometimes it's easier with a random stranger!

I appreciate you have to go straight back to work after but they won't know if you tell them your appt was running late - treat yourself to a coffee/cake/calm down afterwards.

I know its awful but this evening my thinking is that this pregnancy will end like the last. At least if they tell me that then it won't b such a shock like last time...i went into shock- i dont even know how i got home.

I havn't thought about being pregnant. I actually felt a fraud sitting in the ante natel clinic today. The Dr was talking about the MLU & i had to admit i havn't even thought about the birth. I told her i didn't think i would get that far, she looked surprised.

If i get the news Im expecting then my priority will to get an ERPC asap as summer hols start this week.

I probably come across as horrible but its the only way i can cope. Ds's working tonight so Im on my own- again. So i need to get this out my system...

How was your scan? Hope all went well