Feel so low....

[joellie183]

Hi,

just needed advice and help in getting through things as feel so alone.

Will keep it short but basically found out I was pregnant and was over the moon as me and my patner had been trying over 2 years, 3 weeks later he leaves me and my dd 8yrs from previous relationship athough he was like a dad to her. we were civil and he still popped over and wanted to be part of my dd life and the baby. but I was still heartbroken.
and on Friday we went together for the 12 weeks scan, I should've been 11+2 but we were told baby had no blood flow and measured 8 weeks.

Just feel like my whole world is falling apart and my dd is so upset bout everything to that is so hard to keep a brave face for her.

And to make it worse when i really needed my ex here supporting us he just said he needed to go back to his friends to sort his head out for a bit but will be back in an hour....well that our never came and found out he was with a 19yr old girl that night at hers (he's 41!!).

just so many emotions to deal with

Hi Joelie,

It sounds like you are going through an awful time, no wonder you feel so low x x

And I am sorry for my ignorance in asking this, but do you mean you lost the baby? If so I am really, really sorry x x

It must be so hard for your daughter too - and while you are trying to be strong for her, you have nobody there to be strong for you x

Do you have family near by that you can lean upon or go and stay with whilst you deal with all your feelings?

Hi,

yes we lost the baby, even that was a horrible experience as was told then we were put in a room for half an hour before anyone came to see us!

I have to ring midwife tomorrow to let her know if I want to wait for nature to take its course or have ERPC. I'm going for the latter as I don't think I could mentally just sit and wait.

I have family and friends near by who have been great support but in my head and heart all I want is my ex here and at the moment it feels like he doesn't care at all. I have to keep telling myself that he is just dealing with it differently to me.