support please?

[MultipleMama]

I've touched lightly on this on another thread but I feel I need to talk about it and get your opinions.

From 7 weeks onward, I found out that one of my twins had very low fluid. I was told that it didn't look good and their could be health problems. I had a Threatened miscarriage and been off and on bed rest ever since. I'm currently 19+4 and I've been through every emotion possible. I've been hesitant to tell people it's twins in case I lose one or both and then have to explain it to people.

T1's fluid is forever going up and down it's never been stable and as I've hit 2nd Tri they are now concerned of cord compression and possible IUGR and premature labour.

I find it hard to bond with T1 without feeling like I could lose them or never meet them and I hate it. I feel like I can't enjoy being pregnant and every scan is nerve racking. I love my babies so much already but I'm scared that I'm already giving up on T1 and grieving. I hate feeling like that.

Is this normal? My other PGs have been healthy and fine so this is all new. Sorry for rant and long post but just needed to write it down. I've talked to my consultant says it's normal but I don't feel like it is.

hi multiplemama i cant offer any advice from a personal point as i havnt been in your position, both my last pregnancies were singles and ok. but i can feel how upset u are by this so i didnt want to read and run. all i can say is keep the hope that all will be well untill either way u know for sure. i know this must be so hard as pregnancy is stressful without any added worriesbut the extra stress wont be good for u are babies and ive always tried to look at things as what will be will be no matter how much we wrry about them as some things are beyond our control. i really hope this pregnacy works out for u, keep us posted xx

Thank you, for your reply. lozza

Had my 3d scan and 20w scan on Sunday and it was bad news, well, it wasn't good.

T1 (who is a boy!), has been diagnosed with severe onset IGUR. He hasn't grown much since my last stay in hospital. His fluid has slightly increased but they say that won't make much difference. They think it's something to do with his placenta and low and behold they found SUA. He is measuring at 19+3 as his sister measures at 20+6. My optimistic consultant has told me to prepare for a SB/early delivery which will risk her if I deliver early. It's a case of monitoring him, waiting and hoping for the best. The goal is to reach 28w were my delivery options will be discussed.

Sorry to hear you're having such a difficult situation with your twin pregnancy. I haven't experience but just wanted to say that i'm keeping everything crossed that your little ones can hang in there until 28 weeks.xx