Emotional at 36 weeks

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I'm 36+2 & although I've had a really easy pregnancy, I think I'm now having a wee hormonal wobbler Anyone else?
Also, I just found out this week I'll be having baby by section at 39 weeks - on the 28th June - and that's not that far away! It's all feeling very real & scary now - don't suppose I can change my mind & have a puppy instead.....?! I'm a first time mum & even at the age of 33 haven't a clue about children or babies
I'm also feeling, and looking, a lot larger (obviously) and recently DP has lost all interest in sex or intimacy saying he's scared he'll hurt the baby etc etc when I think it's really because my body repulses him I fought the urge to cry all day but broke down as DP was going to work tonight. He's always so good to me & so lovely & so when he asked me what was wrong I said I was just tired & hormonal. When in actual fact it's because I tried to look pretty all day & I don't think he noticed
I'm feeling so sorry for myself! I hate it! Someone tell me this ends soon!!!!

Hi
Take comfort in knowing that what you're feeling is totally normal and it will end and you'll be cuddling your pfb. :)
It's quite natural for your partner to see you differently you're about to become the mother of his child. My dh has not wanted to be intimate for months as he sees it that me carrying his child puts me in a new league, and not someone who he could sexualy desire. although I have no doubt about how much he loves me. It's just different for now. Your dp is being lovely too so I'm sure he still very much loves you.
Pregnancy is tough and your nearly there. Well done and good luck xx

Oh god welcome to pregnancy it can be dark at times jm pregnant with second and feel the same pet except iim angry and I want a divorce but can't really remember why! Of course it gets better you'll be ok be good to yourself ask for cuddles and rest your husband loves you very much. I wish I could take my own advice though. I'm currently sleeping in spare room refusing to sleep with husband I'm desperate for a cuddle.

Big hugs OP, sorry you are feeling so bad.

I had a good old cry on Fri. I was upset (amongst other things) about the state of my feet, but not feeling able/bothered to go for a pedicure. Irrationally concerned that the salon will turn me away as my feet as so horrible!!

Am sure your DH is looking at you slowly moving about, wincing with the pain/looking v uncomfortable and probably thinks the last thing you want is to DTD! He sounds like a good DH, hopefully you can talk to him about it?

Are you a reading/manual type of person? Have you got any books for when the baby is here? If you have some time before your c-sect, maybe you could do some reading about once the baby is here? I found the What to Expect in the First Year a good practical manual. It might help you feel more prepared?

I am 39 weeks today, I have had enough too. But I do know (as this is number 2) the end will come at some point!

One of the "upsides" of a c-sect is that you know when it is. Are you feeling ok about having a c-sect?

Your baby will be with you in 2.5 weeks. Scary yes but also hopefully one of the most amazing things you will ever experience (generally having a child rather than childbirth!).

Thanks ladies for your kind words
rosie - thank god this is 'normal'. I have taken the weight gain/spotty skin etc with good humour until now. Just as well we're only weeks away!
sweetiepie - that's so funny, I am very guilty of that too. Unfortunately our spare room is now a nursery and so I have no option but to ask for a cuddle but still sobbing into his chest because I feel useless/fat/ugly and lying and saying I'm just teary because of the hormones! (which I suppose is partly true)
MrsMargo - that's a shame about your feet! I feel your pain. I have some glitter nail polish on my toenails that I put on a few weeks ago for a wedding, but I now really cant reach them to get the damn stuff off. It usually doesn't come off unless I chip it off & I am refusing to ask DP as I am aware of the fact I have a few hairs growing on each of my big toes - boke - and I don't want DP to notice as obviously cant reach them either with a wax strip Funnily enough a friend has just given me What to Expect in The First Year, so I'll have a wee read at that over the next couple of weeks I'm feeling ok about the section actually, I cope better when I know what to prepare and plan for, so a section is right up my street! The only thing is having to take it easy for 6 (?) weeks but I know DP will look after me although sitting on my arse with a surgical scar for 6 weeks will not help me shift the baby weight and I know DP will be disappointed when I don't "spring Back" to shape like he thinks is going to happen Good luck to you for the birth of your LO and thanks for the words of support