found out yesterday I'm miscarriying or have miscarried :(

[hollie1stbaby]

After going back and forth to lister early pregnancy unit to get my hcg levels monitored. In the last 48 hours my levels halved from 363. Still bleeding but its slowing down, will never forget what was once inside me. I new this was going to be the outcome but I stayed positive. Its took a bit out of me. Thanks for all the support from the women on here.

I am so sorry. It is totally awful.

Thanks, I've been trying not to think about it but it hits me at randomn times burst in tears earlier when I had to ring lister and cancel my booking in appointment as my starter pack arrived through the post had to tell them why I no longer needed I find it hard to say

So sorry - awful thing to go through. Best wishes x

You poor thing. It is so hard especially with all the reminders

So sorry - it's a shit thing to have to go through, my mc started this time last week, and the last 7 days have been awful, I think i'm finally getting out the other side now, but the smallest strange things can set you off.

The mc boards on here (in the Body & Soul section) were a great source of info and support when I went through an mc a couple of months ago.

I am so sort for your lose. It's heartbreaking. I second Euro the mc threads really helped me get through the worst of it.

Thanks guys I can see the light at the end of the tunnel got a great bf and friends and my mums been amazing not saying I won't shed any more tears . Like my bf said when its meant to be it will be so hopefully next time I will have some good news for you guys will have a look at that now x

Sorry to hear that, sending u love and hugs x

Sorry to hear that hollie, thinking of you xx

Hi Hollie,

I had a missed miscarriage last year. It was the single worse thing i've ever had to experience. I was told on my 12 week scan the baby had no heartbeat and it was measuring to be bigger than 12 weeks, so had happened recently, I had gone in expecting to pay for loads of scan photos! That was April 30th 2012. When they asked what i wanted to do, i told them they were wrong and i'd 'wait and see'. Two weeks passed and I got my hopes up as I hadn't bled a drop, felt pain or anything. I convinced myself the baby turned into an impossible position to get a heartbeat on a scan. After two weeks i agreed to get medical assistance, after taking the oral tablet before being expected into hospital to finalize the process two days later, I miscarried for 8 hours that night. As it was at home, we had to check ''everything'' was expelled and my partner had to cut open the sac and see the baby.
There's nothing I can say to make it easier or better, but we stand together.

So sorry to hear this Hollie

So sorry Hollie i had a mmc last august at 10 weeks and it was one of the most up setting times for us....totally understand when u say about it hitting u at certain times well cry as much as u want i found it really helped and the support here from mn was really good to hve....its a horrible time u'll never forget ur little babs but it will get easier. Hoping for nice things ahead for you. F xx

I'm so sorry Hollie. I was really hoping for the best for you.

Vix that sounds absolutely horrific. There are no words.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Hollie. It is just the worst, unfair and isolating thing.
It's good that you're feeling positive for next time but my little bit of advice is not to feel obliged to put on a happy face when you just want to howl. Let it out and talk about your loss if you feel that will help.