Well this is a follow on from my post last week really.
Had a scan at 8 weeks last Wednesday where they suspected ectopic pregnancy but actually found I may have had a missed miscarriage. Went back yesterday at what should have been 9 weeks for a repeat scan and they confirmed a missed miscarriage at 5 weeks. Feeling heartbroken is an understatement. I'm surprised at the strength of my feelings actually, and also a little grossed out I've been carrying around a dead baby for a month. Hubby has been wonderful last night and I'm going in for an ERPC today so cannot fault my hospitals service. Now I'm scared about surgery etc, and what to expect (the leaflets they give only tell so much) and also worried about the emotional healing too, I feel I'm being judged for crying all the time like I am at the moment. And I'm worried about the effect this will have on DS (4 years old), he seems to accept baby has gone to heaven as it wasn't strong enough to grow big enough to get born but you never know with kids do you?!
If you got to the end of this, we'll done, it's just a rant/moan really at how unfair things are xx