hhh MissChiedf thankyou for checking up on me ,and thanx ante natal girls also.
My mum got here to look after dd and saw my face at the door and said she'd ferry me around today , I was in no fit state to drive , having worked myself up to shaking. She also took dd to nursury and then gave me lunch at hers , nice mummy, think I needed that today.
How ironic that it should be the midwife that I had problems with 3 yrs ago!!!! I told her so too, I said your part of my PTSD history so Id rather not see you !!!She was totally fine with it and even said may be I should go to ante natal unit at the hospital Im booked in at , so that I can dissasociate from the midwives at my surgury. She also admitted to being quite lost when I was in her care 3yrs ago, she was totally , had only just qaulified and was new to the community. I just didnt need that the state I was in then.
Its taken me all day to calm down , and Im still a bit on edge. Every check was fine , my mum said she could hear baby's heart beat in the surgurys waiting room!!!!! My low bp has shot up to normal today also , possibly due to the high anxiety !!
Ive made my next appt at the hospital with the ante natal team, as I think it may be good to get used to being in there, they also informed me I still have a Consultant check up , which no one had told me about, but Im going to keep it anyway and check before that its not the inept twit that sent me away with no care of my history.
Now I have to get through to Thursday , as have mental health assesmant. Im surprised im not on funny farm already.