I haven't had a scan for over three weeks now, and during that time I have settled into a fairly peaceful state of mind which is a combination of denial and misplaced optimism that all will be fine -
but tomorrow I will have another scan where they will check baby's position etc to decide on type of birth. I am dreading it because so far every scan has brought bad news, and I don't really want to be dragged out of my calm state of mind into more worrying and fear. 
Wish me luck please!