Hi
I have my performance review with my boss tomorrow and really worried. I got a rating that means I'm high-performing in November, but I'm sure I'm going to be marked down for stuff that has happened since. Coupled with this, the volume of work has meant I'm working 55-60 hour weeks and just can't do it all to a high quality. I think the wider team will be restructured while I'm on maternity leave (due to a wider org redesign) and I feel worried that a) they're not going to replace me while on maternity leave, and b) I won't have a job to come back to. The first one is pretty much a certainty due to a recruitment freeze.
The environment is hugely political and I'm finding myself counting down the remaining weeks until I go on mat leave (20 weeks now) but so worried as I need a job to go back to. I've only been there 16 months and wish I'd never left my old company now.
I'm not sleeping (mix of hormones, toilet trips and worry!!) and just wanted to get thoughts on how hard it is to find alternative work after maternity leave, preferably part-time? I know I should just enjoy my pregnancy but worried about not having a job to pay the bills. I worked so hard to get a promotion to my current role and scared I'll take a massive pay cut and step back from here.
Thanks all for your help