18 weeks and desperately miserable

[parttimer79]

I'm nearly 19 weeks and feel utterly broken.
I can't stop crying. I can't even make myself leave the sofa to eat or get a drink.
I am worried sick that something will go wrong with the baby, to the extent that I went to see the midwife today to hear the heartbeat again.
I have never experienced these feelings in my life so can only assum eit is my hormones making me feel like this.
My DP is away for work and even when he is here he is always working so I feel utterly alone. I don;t want to admit to my mum or friends thar I am not coping.
This baby is so wanted but I am so so sad, I have cried non stop for the last hour and it shows no signs of stopping.
Is anyone else feeling like this?

It sounds like you have prenatal depression. Please go and tell your doctor and/or midwife.

Please do go and see your GP. I agree with the poster above that you may have antenatal depression. Hope you feel better soon.

I think so too. Please don't wait, this s not your fault and it is treatable. Sending you

I did feel like this,yes.
When i was pregnant with my DD,I hid it and did nothing but cry and worry for the whole pregnancy and the following 3 yrs.then,6 months after I had DS,I 'cracked' and went to see the GP,cried my eyes out and told her everything.
She was wonderfully supportive,after a long journey i am 100% myself again,and now all I wish was that I had gone sooner.much sooner.

Please please go to your midwife,or your GP and tell them how you feel.

Oh yes, antenatal not prenatal sorry. And also sorry for such a terse post - had to go and throw up. Again. (Morning all fucking day sickness)

Depression is awful, it's not your fault, and it is very treatable xx

Thank you for all your kind messages. I have made an appointment to see my GP today and wept a lot on DP (who came home from work as he was worried about me). I just can't understand it when I want my baby so much but feel so so sad.

Its your hormones, which affects your body's ability to secret the right amounts of seratonin, and sometimes endorphins, which have a terrible effect on your moods - and prenatal depression is very real and completely treatable by your doctor. By 19 weeks your HCG levels have tailed off, and progesterone, followed by oestrogen kicking in quite strongly. This can wreak havoc for some women. They will have seen this lots of times before - don't be alarmed at all (easier said than done) - getting it sorted now is very sensible. And another tip which I am sure you have been told - but even when you REALLY do not fancy it, gentle exercise can really help with this - it releases seratonin, which your body is depleted of, making you feel so blue. A gentle walk round the block etc once a day, if that is all you can manage could help a bit too - I know it is the last thing you want to do, but maybe have a bath, slowly get ready then go for a little potter. Your GP will ask you about this too I think when you go. Best of luck for later, really hope it goes ok.