pg with no 2 and feeling a bit torn about my career

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Just wondered if anyone is feeling similar. Background is that I'm mid 30s and I always wanted two children. I conceived my now 15 month DS really easily and went back to work again a few months ago. Then bingo - before even starting ttc and despite still breastfeeding I'm pregnant again. If this pregnancy works out I'll have a two year gap.

The biggest part of me is just so deeply grateful to have found it so easy to get pregnant when I started the whole business. And I adore my son and would love a second child. But I love my demanding job, I feel scared and guilty about telling work I'm pg again so soon, and just can't imagine being back in a 'maternity leave' zone yet. We're currently restoring a clapped out house and have builders in so I'm manic in every aspect of my life and hardly have time to think straight.

Has anyone been through this? Do you have perspective on it from a calmer place! I know it is silly but I feel really shellshocked at the moment.

Don't worry your feelings are completely normal but once baby is here you will wonder how you could ever have lived life without them in it.

It's against the law for your employer to discriminate against you so they'll be nice as pie to your face even if they raise eyebrows behind your back - so what? In years to come when you're playing with your grandchildren you probably won't even remember the names of the people you'll have to tell about this pregnancy.

Loads of people have babies when the timing wasn't quite what they planned and cope fine, so will you. Give yourself a couple of weeks to get over the shock - I'm certain 3 weeks from today you will have come to terms with your new situation.

You've been back to work once after mat leave so you know how to deal with returning to work once that time comes.

Best wishes with everything.

Thanks Moonhare, I really appreciate it. My work are actually really nice and I'll be 37 when I have this baby, so it is good we've got on with it really! I think I'm just shellshocked...