Just found out & massively freaking out - help!!

[Saundy]

I've just found out I'm pregnant (so don't know what all the abbreviations mean in posts as this is a whole new world).

I don't know where to start, I'm completely freaking out - I thought I'd be really happy but I'm just really shocked. I feel like everywhere I look all I see are horrible bratty children & I can't remember why this was a good idea. Is this normal? It's only been 2 days since I found out but I feel like such a bad person cause my reaction has really caught me off guard.

Because I'd been on the implant I thought it would take longer to happen but it's happened straight away which I didn't expect (I had some debts I wanted to clear first & am trying to secure a pay rise at work this week).

I also took a negative test initially which I took as a green light to have a few nights out & I drank so much more than I have in a long time & feel really guilty about that too.

Is this normal? I'm all panic & no happy at the minute & I was wondering if anyone else reacted like that? I feel like I'm barely pregnant & I'm already a bad mum.

Bloody hell cyclecamper that must've been a shock and a half! But congrats & to you too abbyfromoz.

I have calmed down now, I have the doctors today to get me official confirmation & get booked in (?). I guess I'm going to have to wee in or on something but not really sure what else to expect. Despite my pile of positive tests part of me still thinks he might say its all in my head!

Normal, normal, normal!! Please don't worry (well, not about this, anyway!)

We had been trying a short time and it happened faster than we expected BUT it was absolutely planned... and I cried when I got my positive result. Not tears of joy! Not sadness either, but just a terrible sense of my old life ending... I WAS happy, but I was just so freaked out. The next day I had a different kind of freak-out all about how the hell we would afford it, the effect on my work etc etc... It did settle down and I have managed to enjoy the pregnancy on the whole, I just have deliberately tried to avoid 'thinking' about it too much! I'm now due for a CS next week and I'm terrified and freaking out all over again, but adopting the approach of just burying my head in the sand and praying at the mo!

It doesn't help that I'm particularly nervous about a potential disability being inherited by the baby... or that I'm just a paranoid anxiety-addict at the best of times!!

But given all that, I really HAVE managed to chill out much more than I thought I ever would, and I'm sure you'll be able to do the same as soon as the shock has worn off. Don't feel abnormal just because you weren't dancing around the room popping champagne corks. For some people utter joy is normal and excactly how they feel, but not for everyone. And it is possible (and OK) to be happy AND scared at the same time!!

Huge congratulations too, btw, I really really hope you can relax just a bit very soon and keep the totally-understandable freaking-out to a minimum... :)