28 wks preggers and I feel like I am going mad...

[RachaelH1983]

Hi all this is my first thread so plz be gentle with me. I am 28 wks pregnant with my second child, I have a 8yr old. My partner + I don't live together. Finding it hard with day to day life, I have suffered with quite bad depression in the past. I am constantly crying, get upset over anything. Feel really low, I'm so grateful that I'm pregnant + know how lucky I am to be pregnant but I feel like I'm losing the plot. I do feel like I can't keep going like this otherwise I will do something silly, anyone who has suffered with mental health issues will know that these thoughts are not wanted but have no control over them which is more frustrating. I am waiting for the doctors to call me + I'm hoping I will get some sort of medication that can get me back to normal before the baby comes along. I'm due for a c-section a wk before I'm due so that's playing on my mind, due to move house 5 weeks after baby is born. Constantly skint+it feels like I'm the only one who is taking all this on board and dealing with it I feel like I'm on a downward spiral and I know the signs of depression it scares me if I don't get this under control now I will be a lot worse when the baby comes along. Just wanna know I'm not alone is there anyone else out there who has gone thro this please let me know there is light at the end of the tunnel

Please speak to your midwife, they've got resources to help you. Remember the Samaritans are always there when you need to talk. Open up to family and friends and let them help you.

Identifying the beginning of the downward spiral is great. You need to make sure you are honest with the people who cab help to make sure you get the care you need. Please don't downplay things.

Sorry I can't be more help, I'm sure someone with experience will be along soon. I really hope you feel better soon. x

Hi hun, I feel for you. I had depression for 12 years after losing a baby girl at 22 weeks, when I got pregnant again I was over joyed but the depression really kicked in, I felt wrong feeling like that because I was blessed to be pregnant again. Pregnancy is hard, our minds race with silly thoughts and guilt for having them thoughts make us worse, I ended up having massage therapy and spoke to councilor once ever 2 weeks. made big difference and better than having to pop pills whilst pregnant. Im now pregnant again ( been 11 years since my other lovely daughter was born and I had to come off my depression pills when we decided to conceive. Im 24 weeks pregnant and doing ok upto now, Im moving 4 weeks before my bundle of joy arrives and to be honest Im kind of stressed but trying to only think positive. Hope you get the support you need xx

Thank u both, the doctor has just rang I have to see her monday and she is referring me for counselling. In a way I'm glad I have suffered with depression before as I know the signs and would never ignore them as I did previously and really lost the plot and looking back now it was quite scary how bad I was I will grab what ever help I can. Guilt is a massive factor along with loads of other feelings and emotions.

I'm feeling positive now for speaking to the doctor and hope I stop being such a blubbering mess as its so frustrating that I can't control my emotions right now !!

I'm so sorry things are difficult for you at the moment. I've had depression in the past and now that I'm pregnant (32 wks) I've spent half the time feeling terrified of slipping back into it. Pregnancy can be incredibly overwhelming even at the best of times, but there's some good help out there and you are absolutely doing the right thing by reaching out and asking your doctor to refer you for some support. It takes real strength to do that, so you should feel proud that you're taking such positive steps. Please don't be afraid to talk to people around you too - friends, family, etc - as it's vital not to bottle things up. Also remember that we're at the mercy of our hormones during this time, so feeling like you're losing the plot is no reflection on you or your ability to cope. Wishing you all the very best - you will get through this, even if it takes a while. Please remember you're not alone. xx

Thank you mango very nice message just what I need to hear. X