Hey so had my 20 week scan today and its a boy!! sooo happy as we have a DD and really wanted a boy but have had several MC and had got it into my head that i couldnt carry boys. This was me thinking this not been told by anyone. N e way after several hours of un controlled excitement about the fact we are having a boy (the sonographer said he was 98% sure and showed us twice) bam now comes in my stupid anxiety again! I suffer from it really bad. Of course i am so so happy that relieved the baby is healthy and there so please i dont want n e one to think im selfish or a bad mum as i am so happy baby is healthy and all there. I just worry now wat if he got it wrong. Im the type of person that if the baby comes out a girl i may get upset as my dreams of having a boy will be gone. Has n e one experienced this and been ok. Also we only saw the scrotum i couldnt see the willy at all but he showed us a white bulge inbetween the legs with 2 white lines run ning through them and showed us this twice and was pretty sure it was a boy. has n e one been show the scrotum and not the willy and had baby was a boy. I know i sound really vain and stupid and until my baby is born i wont know for sure but i cant help my anxiety it like takes control of me and i cant think of anything else. I dont know what i want out of this post just wanted to write it all down somewere. xxx