Still scared at 15 weeks! Just need to talk

[katesav87]

Hi I'm 15 weeks and I know I'm being silly but I'm still scared that ill loose this baby, I've had a really hard couple of years with my health had 2 miscarriages and a long period of illness which resulted in my gall bladder being taken out. I just don't seem to get my head around the fact that I might actually deserve abit of luck and this is it. I have a dd who is 4 and I don't remember ever panicking with her. I have a Doppler at home and use it once a day to listen to the heartbeat and now scared it will hurt the baby. I know I shouldn't use it but I just can't stop it eases my anxiety and keeps me carm but now so scared I'm doing damage. Not seeing the midwife until next Tuesday just wanted to speak to someone. I think I've spoken all I can to my family and friends about how I feel just so scared. Xx

Right then, I don't think a Doppler is your friend as so easy to misinterpret or not find the heartbeat as baby in different position. Have you spoken to your GP about anxiety? Statistically your pregnancy is very likely to be fine!

I'm still scared at 36+ weeks, so you're not alone!

I'm the opposite of the pp in that I think as long as you are using the Doppler correctly, and you know the difference between your heart and baby's, they are an excellent tool for reassurance.

You never relax, as you'll know, not even when they're here. But chances are we will all have healthy babies after the 12 week point.

I know this is probably not a comfort, as I know I'm just as paranoid, but it's far easier to write the words to someone else than take a handle on your own anxiety!

Yes i do agree that a doppler is not my friend but its a very proffessional doppler and im very good at using it and have always found the heartbeat. I know that there are other sounds in there but know what im looking out for. i just dont want it harming the baby but have spoken to a number of medical proffesional friends who all say they dont harm the baby. Still get scared. I suffer from anxiety and never have time to go to the docters. I work full time and also have my daugther to look after. its hard to get there. I will speak to the midwife and discuss how i feel. Know im being silly and all should be fine just cant get over my anxiety ive lost control of it

You really need to start looking after yourself here and being a bit selfish. Your health matters, so make a doctor's appointment during work hours as your employer has to give you time off for medical care. You aren't being silly, you just need someone to take control for a bit to allow you to relax. The doctor and midwife will be sympathetic, as anxiety in pregnancy is something they see all the time.