I'm scared!
I have a gorgeous 3 year old dc ( horrific birth, like nearly dead horrific).
A year After having him we had a MC at 10 weeks and another 6 months after that ( baby wasn't growing at all so we were advised to abort, possibly the single worst even in my life apart from the earlier MC ). These experiences really damaged me and DP, and our relationship.
Over 18 months later and things are better than ever, DC is amazing, DP and I are amazing...
....And I'm around 5-6 weeks pregnant!!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'm so excited ( obviously haven't told a soul). I swore I would never try again but it just felt right and here we are.
But I can't help but feel absolutely devastated for the babies I lost, and the what ifs. My only successful pregnancy was terrifying throughout (I was really ill and had prenatal depression - medicated) and then I had pnd after so bonding was incredibly hard and took a long time.
I know I'm not a bad mum, I work hard and ds has a great life but I'm so scared I'll let him and the new baby down.
Has anyone been through this and had a happy ending.