I have just found out that I am 5 weeks pregnant with our first and very longed for child. I was driving home earlier from the tack shop and suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of holy c**p! It's not that I don't want to be a parent, infact I think I will make a very good parent, it is all this bit that I am feeling anxious about. I am not very maternal and the thought of growing a baby inside of me kind of freaks me out. Not even going to mention child birth and my anxiety there! I am close to tears about all of this because I feel that I shouldn't feel this way but I can't help it. I have discussed it a little with my husband but he doesn't really get it and I don't really want him to think that I don't want this because I do. Pre pregnancy i would have mulled this over with a glass or ten of wine, now I can't even do that !! Any suggestions??