I am having my 20 week scan tommorrow and naturally I should be excited- but having read up about still births (the poor Barlows) and coming across articles of late miscarriages....i am now very tense up.
My husband seems to dismiss it, but then he is always very laid back and has the notion that everything will be great.
But i am wound up with worry- what if the babys heart isnt working, what if something is wrong.....
i find myself drifting while i am at work- i keep mixing patient notes up and got into a small ruskus with the owner :(
i am quite worked up thinking of all the things that could go wrong. i always seem to get all these terrible thoughts during pregnancy, when i was pregnant with my son i got into a panic that my hubby was going to die....i cant seem to control the amount of worrying thoughts that come to me when i am pegnant :(