why am I panicking so much more about going into labour when this is dc3!!

[miaboo]

I dont know why but I'm really worried that I cant deal with the pain
Ds1 is 5 and my labour was 26 hours but to be honest wasent that painful, ds2 is 20 months and labour was 2 hours! came out of no where and could only have gas and air, think because of my second labour not really being that long ago and quite painful I can remember it more and its scaring me alittle, I've been practically housebound the last couple of weeks as he keeps trapping nerves in my legs which is soooooo painful and it cripples me so the pain of this really isnt helping!
I'm normally such a calm person but for some stupid reason this is freaking me out and I just keep thinking I'm going to be so pathetic and just crumble into a stupid embarrassing mess and [embarrassed] at myself!

I'm more nervous this time (dc2). Perhaps because I know how anything can happen and it can't really be controlled. I also have a fear of experiencing the pain again. I want an epidural but am afraid I won't be able to get one for whatever reason.

Perhaps we also forget how scared we were last time? I think once it all starts the adrenalin kicks in and the fear subsides. (well I hope that's the case anyway!)

Wow I could of written this post about myself!! Dc1 was six hours and my second I delivered him in 45 mins from first contractions to birth.

I am sooooo nervous this time but the weird thing is that I've been fine up until my 36 week appointment (today) when midwife asked me about birth I just turned into a mess! I've started panicking about the other children and the fact my baby is back to back and it will Hurt, I feel like I have absolutely no control. I am also in a lot of pain with hips and back.......

I've had a stern chat with myself today at being silly so it surely must be a hormonal thing?? Once birth is over I'm sure we will forget what we were worrying about and I personally can't wait to be able to run around after the other two (similar ages to yours) as I feel do guilty that they are stuck with a moaning minnie that is supposed to be their mum lol.

I find that I just have to repeat to myself what will be will be.....I hope u don't get yourself in too much of a panic, maybe we can try calm each other down!!

Take care x