Scan later today - feeling of dread

[trivoli]

First thing to say is that I am very lucky and already have a little girl. I know how lucky I am to have a healthy DD but I so want to have another successful pregnancy. Before DD I had 2 mcs - at 11 weeks and 12 weeks. DD is 3 and a half and Iwe've been trying on and off for the last 2 and a half years. In that time had various problems including being diagnosed with PCOS and problems with my cycle. Since Jan I've had 3 chemical pregnancies but happily I am now 8+2 pregnant.

I had some very slight spotting last week and thought here we go again. Had a scan and saw a lovely strong heartbeat and bean measuring correct for dates BUT I was told there was quite a big blood clot in my uterus - a subchorionic haematoma. The EPU MW was lovely but when I came away I didn't have a feel for whether it was a real problem or not. She talked about hoping it would reabsorb itself and keeping fingers crossed. She seemed very positive but I stupidly came home and asked Dr Google. It seems to be a mixed picture of success stories and horror stories. I;m now worried about the size of the clot - I saw it on teh scan and it was bigger than the gestational sac.

Even though the MW reassured me that it is common and routine and not necessarily a problem I have been asked to come in for a scan again today and now I'm thinking it must be a cause for concern. I feel full of cold dread (as well as morning sickness - this pregnancy is by far the worst I just can't get any relief from it) about what I will see today on the scan.

Sorry for me using this as a big vent and thanks so much if you made it this far.

I feel horrible and tearful - I really can't bear the thought of losing another pregnancy.

Google is a big fat pile of steaming excrement when it comes to medical issues. It's full of stupid bored people of the type who always havd to go one better - if you say you're going to Tenerife, they claim to be going to Elevenerife. Every headache is cancer, every sore arm is a multiple fracture, and it's all posted to get attention.

Trust the highly qualified, personal service given by the mw who has actually met you. And if you have any concerns, contact her or go to the EPU for another check. Allaying your fears is as important as anything else :)

Thanks for that. You're right of course - need to step away from google. Elevenerife made me laugh. I'm due at EPU after the scan this afternoon and see what the MW says about it.

Oh and there's an old wives' tale that the sicker you are, the stronger the baby - they're not far off for the average person because the nausea is caused by pg hormones. It settles once the placenta is in place, at the beginning of the 2nd trimester, which is why ms abates then and not earlier. Personally i think my current energy comes from sheer relief at not feeling sick anymore!

Can you tell I'm on my first and have treated my worrying by reading everything possible?

Excellent, it's impossible to laugh and worry at the same time :o

Hope all goes well. As someone who had recurrent miscarriages I understand what you are feeling. I was convinced when i had last successful pregnancy it was going to be bad news on the scan day, I had no morning sickness and did notfeel pregnant.I had also had some bleeding T 7 weeks. Was good news and he is now 4 years old.
Let us know how u geton

Thanks ladies.

I was determined to try and enjoy this pregnancy and stop worrying. Impossible though isn't it?

I keep hoping the sheer awfulness of the nausea is a good sign...I didn't know that was why the nausea stopped after 12 weeks purplepidjin - learn something new everyday!

Just going to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best this afternoon and think myself lucky for the early scans and extra care from the EPU. Will update later.

Any news