10 weeks Pregnant again after miscarriage ....... Terrified

[Cakeplease]

Dear all, I had a miscarriage in march & I'm now pg again without a period in between. I had a reassurance scan 2 weeks ago which saw a tiny baby & a heartbeat measuring 8+2. It only slightly put my mind at rest & I'm still terrified of getting to my 12 week scan and finding I've miscarried since then. I'm not really getting many symptoms (a bit tired and have been sick suddenly 3 times) but that's it. With DC1 I was exhausted!! I'm still not letting myself fully believe I'm pregnant, I think it's a self preservation thing..... Just in case. I was so excited last time, planning double buggies, names etc. It hit me really hard. I'm hoping after the 12 weeker I might start to relax & enjoy it. I really hope so :(

Hi Cake. I'm also 10 weeks and refusing to believe its really there. I haven't had a miscarriage before but this pregnancy was a complete shock so I can't quite make myself see it yet. Its definitely self preservation. Nobody knows except DH and nobody will til the scan proves i really am pregnant.

When is your scan date? Mine is 19th June so only 10 days to go. I've been on the Jan 2013 antenatal thread Why don't you lurk there for a while. We're all just holding hands and wibbling together and its a nice place to gently panic

Hi ya I'm 11 weeks today (Scan on 19th too!) think I'm due 31st Dec (all being well!)
I thought that the 2 week wait to POAS was bad but these 2 months are something else, I haven't been sick just feel a bit bleugh.
Just wanted to add another message to say ur not alone, and we all have similar feelings, i've got 2DD's and had an early MC in-between, but I know plenty of people that have had more upset than me, just holding on to the fact that it's much more usual to get good news, fingers crossed for us all

Thank you both for your responses. You are very kind. I don't have a scan date yet, I only went or my booking in appt with the GP yesterday. I couldn't face it any earlier. GP said date should come through this week. I hope it is soon. I think I'm due first week of Jan I think. No period since miscarriage so not sure plus I don't want a date in case it doesn't work out. I know that because I've seen baby & HB then the miscarriage risk is greatly reduced but I'm unable to be rational about it all! Gggggrrrrrrrrrrr

Good luck to you both. I'm sure all will be fine xxx

Hi all, can I join in??? Im just coming up to 10 weeks after having a mmc in Feb at 13wks......completely terrified!!!! Paid for a private scan at 7 weeks and saw a heartbeat but just like some of you the relief only lasted a wee while :( Have got my first NHS scan on 20th June.....feels like forever away!! Im so, so scared that my baby wont be there :( Have been having much stronger symptoms this time round, but dnt know if that really means anything....Im due 8th Jan....sending lots of love and luck to you all x

Hi all, can I join in??? Im just coming up to 10 weeks after having a mmc in Feb at 13wks......completely terrified!!!! Paid for a private scan at 7 weeks and saw a heartbeat but just like some of you the relief only lasted a wee while :( Have got my first NHS scan on 20th June.....feels like forever away!! Im so, so scared that my baby wont be there :( Have been having much stronger symptoms this time round, but dnt know if that really means anything....Im due 8th Jan....sending lots of love and luck to you all x

Hi - I'm the same except I've had 3 miscarriages in between my DS and this pregnancy. Now 11+2 and my scan is booked for the 20th .....time is just dragggggggggggging. 11 more days till my mind will be set at ease. I'm so scared the baby won't be there too. :(

Hi cakeplease i havent been online for a couple of weeks and was just wondering the other day how you are getting on.
What you have written is exactly how i am feeling at the moment too....you are not alone! I am 10 weeks tomorrow, had a scan last week at 9+3 and saw the tiny baby and nice strong heartbeat, it was lovely. As soon as we got home though i started worrying again. The scan literally put my mind at ease for about half an hour!
I have to wait until 26th June for my 12 week scan which seems like such a long time! But just like you, i am convinced im going to go to the next scan to find that baby has died and ive had another mmc. I know im being very pessimistic but i just cant bring myself to actually be happy or believe that this baby is going to make it. I think im trying to save myself from all the upset i felt last time. I do at the same time feel very guilty tho that im not enjoying what should be a very exciting part of my pregnancy.
I also havent had very many pregnancy symptoms, just feel a little bleugh sometimes but mostly if im hungry, and a bit tired (but thats normal for me anyway!)
This is such a hard time we are all going through at the mo, i just want to fast forward to the 12 week scan and hope we can all relax a little after that! Im due 7th jan by the way xx

Sorry about writing such an essay! I find it really hard to talk to people in real life about how im feeling but on here i cant seem to stop!! x

Just a quick post to say I can really relate to this thread. I am sorry to hear of the losses.

I had a MC at 14 weeks last year, and was very frightened (although delighted) when I feel PG again. I was REALLY anxious at first, especially as I lost a twin 7 weeks into this pregnancy, and I think it is completely normal to be scared when you have experienced such painful disappointment before.

I couldn't let myself believe that I was pregnant and I felt like I was going in front of a firing squad every time I had a scan and I have only started to relax in the last few days (am 25+4) now that I can feel the baby.

I just wanted to send you all a very un-MN hug! And say be kind to yourselves and do whatever you need to do to get through the scary early stages. Don't beat yourselves up for feeling how you do, and remind yourselves daily that every pregnancy has much more chance of going the distance rather than failing.

I wish you all the best xx

Hey ladies, thanks for positive story Beans, quite a few of us with scans next week, think it will be good to get it announced in RL these weeks of worry with not many people knowing when u really could do with the support! Fingers crossed this week goes quickly and Cake hope your scan date comes through soon

How is everyone feeling? Still freaking out??? I had a complete wobble on Sunday, burst into tears in the morning and felt sad all day....think my hubby thought id gone mad! Just got so completely worried and anxious about my scan next week (I think were all feeling it!) Feel bad, cus those that do know Im pregnant keep saying 'it will be fine' 'why are you worried?' and Im cross with myself for being such a bummer about what should be a really exciting time!!! Off to the midwife for my 2nd appointment in half an hour, i wish they had super strength dopplers that could hear a HB at 10/10.5 weeks :(
Hope everyone is well and sending lots of luck for scans x x x