Panic about imminent baby

[Ginga66]

I am thirty eight weeks. Very hard pregnancy. Not helped by some relationship issues. Have three year old light of my life but not great on sleep front. Now that I am nearly there i have started to feel very panicky. I have been thinking will I love this baby as much as my ds. Will dh bond? Will birth be as hard as last one... Twenty three hrs ventouse? Will I cope? Everyone was so surprised I took to motherhood so well as was never very maternal before. I am having a bit of a meltdown amidst Braxton hicks. Hubby has been v anxious too and retreats or gets picky when he is scared which does not help. Anyone get this?

Yes, I think it's normal! You spend so long waiting for baby, and then suddenly when it's impending all the fears come back. Of the things I worried about though, most were fine. If your DH isn't that supportive, have you considered a doula as someone you could have with you at the birth and to chat things through with in advance?

I found that the main difference between labour 1 and 2 was that the second time my body seemed to know what to do and I was just along for the ride which made it much much better. It was half the time of the first one and as I knew what to expect it seemed that I was much more in controle and not so helpless as the first one. Am now 39w with no 3 and all the fears are back so dont worry we all feel the same and it will all be perfectly allright!!!
Both DC1 and DC2 are bad sleepers and wander into our bed at night, I have cosleept with both since newborn, and have no idea how to manage DC3 when we get back as sleeping with the baby and the two kids is not a good idea.. Then we of course have to find space for Daddy in bed as well...
DC1 stopped coming into our bed when DC2 was born (didnt get any sleep as DC2 was a prolific feeder at night and) so suddenly he slept through in his own bed after a few nights. Thought we had it sussed! Then as DC2 figured he could wander in the night DC1 joined in again for nighttime bed parties. Now how do I get them both to stay in their beds?
Sorry long rant, just wanted to say you will be absolutly fine it all sorts itself out one way or another, and your labour will be quicker and easier and all will be well. xxx

Well mighty I know he wants to be at birth so not considered doula no...
I guess it's four in a bed for me mummy pig!