Going for a private scan tomorrow but its two trains and a taxi and 30 mins away and have to go alone so that DH can put DS to bed and feeling nervous about the journey, particularly the journey back if it's not good news!
bit of background, sorry, its a long catalogue of errors 
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DS wasn't exactly planned, but was wanted, however it was unexpected so we spent the first part of the pregnancy panicing about what we'ld done etc..
This time was planned, we were over the moon with the BFP and were looking forward to fully enjoying the pregnancy this time.
Had some implantation bleeding and R sided pain, which didn't worry me at first, but once it had continued for over a week I went to my GP to chat about how long is normal and when it gets to not normal
GP v worried and sent me straight to EPU, at this point I was about 5 weeks by LMP but 4 weeks by OV
EPU obv didn't scan - too early, did an internal (no sign of MC) and hCG test which was 288, based on that they said I had definitely MCed, no point ruling out ectopic because I had definitely MCed. I asked the EPU doc to clarify if it was low for how pregnant i was by OV or if that was just low by LMP - he was quite dismissive and vague and repeated that I'ld MCed, he said that it should be over 1000 to be viable (which no charts say it should be till 6 weeks!)
Looked up values online, didn't feel that MC could be conclusively diagnosed at that stage based on that hCG result so phoned back the unit. Nurse wasn't very nice:
nurse:"well it sounds low to me"
me: "what SHOULD it be for 4 weeks then?"
nurse: "most we see here are over 600"
me: "and how far along are most people you see?"
nurse " we see people from 6 weeks"
me: "but what should it be at FOUR weeks"
nurse didn't know!
Back to GP, GP agrees that levels are not conclusively a MC for either 4 OR 5 weeks, so exactly a week later had a second blood test. Result was over 5000, GP not all that positive about it, he said that the initial MC diagnosis seems to be wrong, but he was still concerned because the EPU never ruled out ectopic pregnancy the first time. So says he will refer me for dating and viablity scan
hear nothing about scan, ring GP surgery to chase it up, had a difficult occasion to attend that I had to travel to, told GP about it, he advised me to go to a&e when away if symptoms worsten and said he would try and get me a scan around it.
(now 7 weeks by LMP, 6 by OV) EPU ring when away at sensitive occassion, I can't attend as not in the county that day, they had a go at me saying that if it was urgent I'ld be there. Ok, well Im not and this HAS been going on for 2 weeks now and I couldn't get out of this one thing
still occassional R sided pain, one more episode of pink spotting
GP rings, says the EPU says that if it was ectopic it would have ruptured by now so wont re-scan me (but hang on, I'm only SIX WEEKS, it wouldn't necessarily have ruptured by now! even by LMP I'm only 7 weeks, still mightened have ruptured). GP very worried and advises me to see a doc where I am urgently - but I choose to travel home instead, can't afford for DH and DS to stay in hotels indefinitely.
And because the scan request was marked as an urgent ?ectopic, NOT as a dating scan, I can't re-book it, plus I now have no dating scan when my dates are obviously quite an issue in my treatment from HCPs. So gave up! DH very upset and booked me a private scan
So by now, All the joy of the BFP has gone, I've grieved for an MC I haven't had, now feel numb, and dreading the journey alone to the private scan
sorry not sure how I could have made this any shorter!