Anyone else slightly scared / reluctant to be pregnant?

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Just found out I am pregnant with DC2. Completely unplanned and had come as a massive shock to both myself and DP (we only found out on Friday so that's understandable)

And i feel a bit "meh". I'm trying to get excited but all i can think about is how tired i already am with DS1 (18MO, doesn't sleep through), how skint we already are without me being on SMP and how unconvinced i am i'll cope with a very active 2YO and the demands of a newborn.

I've not seen a midwife yet, hopefully next week after i've changed g.p's, but i estimate according to my dates they'll think i'm about 8weeks pregnant, so i know my hormones are going crazy; and yes i do feel pretty awful which wont be helping my thought process or mood but i just wanted a bit of reassurance that i will start gettiny my head around all of this and feel better about it soon.

I can empathise completely as my 3rd pregnancy was unplanned too - our family was complete with 2 DC. I was totally devastated at the thought of the pregnancy and the baby stage exhaustion, stress and tears.

If you decide to keep the baby (sorry, you haven't said) then you WILL get through it because you have to - you just keep going day by day, until one day your kids are 6 and 4 and they are hilarious fun to be with and life is MUCH easier

I know it's a shock - we didn't sleep properly for a week afterwards as we were completely in shock and our minds couldn't switch off. But as each pregnancy appointment passes you build up a picture of yourselves as "expecting a baby" and you just fall into the routine of gradual preparation.

I was feeling so down about it for a while, but made a conscious decision one day that I couldn't resist it - it was definitely happening - so I needed to behave as if I was excited and maybe my mind would follow IYSWIM. So I tentatively bought a couple of little baby things and it was the beginning of starting to feel more positive about the situation.

I'm now 33 weeks and our nursery is nearly finished. (I still can't quite believe we've got a nursery AGAIN!) I'm nervous about the baby bit again, but i'm at the point when I'm so sick of being pregnant I'm willing time to pass quicker!

Oh, and don't forget, you've done this before, so it's not like the first baby where you have to learn everything from scratch; you're basically experts this time!