Losing it....literally and emotionally

[ChangeMyHappy]

Hi, I had a miscarriage last September at 8 weeks, blighted ovum dated at 5 weeks. Found out recently that I'm pregnant, but feel that it's all gone wrong again.

With my DD (3.2) I had abdominal twinges, stretching pains, no nausea to speak of, but was really tired, although I can't remember when it started or how long it went on for.

Pregnancy 2, didn't get tired, but did have sore boobs, stretching twinges and nausea which slowly went away before I started spotting. Didn't feel 'connected' to the pregnancy, and had to keep reminding myself that I was, if that makes any sense? Also really anxious about things going wrong, and looked into early scans etc.

This time, BFP early (CD26), really tired, sore boobs, twinges, nausea but mostly felt pregnant. All of me knew I was growing a baby.

So today, 5+6, feels like period pains if anything (v. mild, on and off, no spotting yet), no nausea and feel empty. I know I may just be slightly mad, but I don't feel pregnant today and I can't stop crying and expecting the worst.

Tomorrow would have been the due date of my last pregnancy, but can't help feeling there's more to it than anniversary sadness. Just terrified this is over.

Don't know what I'm looking for here, just needed to put it down, I think, but thanks for listening (if you've got this far )

Awww keep us posted, I bet it is just anniversary sadness. I don't really know much about this sort of thing but you can come and sit next to me if you like x

Thanks Something, typical happening over a weekend as well!

Try not to worry, no news is good news so stay positive. But allow yourself to feel sad because of the anniversary and acknowledge that while trying not to worry if its anything more. Do keep us posted - sending a hug and a

Thanks Char, thing is I was doing ok about the miscarriage, especially as I was pregnant again. It's the loss of symptoms that's freaking me out :(

Thanks for the , if I knew for sure I'd be on the gin

Oh you poor love, I hope it's just stretching pains or indigestion or something .... or could it be worry-related pain due to the annversary tomorrow? I'm crossing my fingers for a positive outcome for you xxx

I never thought I'd be praying for the nausea to come back :(

Oh Changemyhappy, I feel for you I really do. I could have written this post myself, I'm in exactly the same position. 5 weeks and 6 days too, have been feeling like it's all gone away today (if you know what I mean). But, like you, there's no real reason to think things are not going well, so I'm chosing to just forget about it and enjoy every moment of this pregnancy, however long it lasts. Maybe I felt like this early on with my first pregnancy too (DS1 arrived perfect and healthy 8 months later), I can't remember, but for me my recent MMC obscures that. It scars you I think.

I'm keeping everything crossed for you - PM me if you like.

Hi Noclue, thanks for that, I'm sorry you're in the same position, but it's actually reassuring to think it' not just me and might be a normal hormone adjustment or something

You're so right, if I hadn't miscarried I may well just be spending the day grateful to be feeling slightly better!

I'll be keeping things crossed for you too-here's to a (slightly) grottier day tomorrow

Hey changemyhappy, really hope eberything's ok. Just wanted to say I also know how you're feeling. I had a spontaneous miscarriage in January at 6 weeks.

I am now 8+1 and am cacking myself everyday, analysing my symptoms, and lack thereof. Basically, from week 6 until 7 and a half, I felt a bit nauseous every afternoon. But about 4 days ago the nausea just vanished and I don't really have any other symptoms. I totally panicked that something ha gone wrong again, but i did have an early reassurance scan 4 days ago which showed a health heartbeat.

So I guess just trying to say: even if your symptoms seem to have gone it doesn't necessarily mean something bad.

Also, I feel a bit queasy this morning for the first time in 4 days, so maybe symptoms can just come-and-go a bit?

Fingers crossed for us all to have healthy pregnancies this time xx

How are you feeling today changemyhappy?

i know exactly how your feeling, my last pregnancy was blighted ovum also, july 13th last year i went for what should of been my 12 week scan to be told no baby just sac showing 6 weeks, i was devistated, this pregnancy i have been really sick up till last week and felt very pregnant. i do know this is not blighted ovum as went for early scan at 7 week which showed heart beat and fetal pole. however i have my scan on tuesday should be 12/ 13 week and i am really nervous incase baby dies or something i also had period like cramps but no bleeding so just hope the cramps were wind, which i have had bad.. it is hard not to think something is going wrong. if your real worried i would suggest telling your midwife or go to the hospital and let them no your having pains see if they can get you an early scan. hope all is well for you hun xx

Thanks everyone, today I've been slightly queasy although DD has recently had a virus with upset stomach, so obviously I'm assuming it's just that!

Having said that, pains have varied from period-type, to sharp, to twingey (is that a word?) and I haven't had any spotting....so I'm trying to cautiously hope for the best.

Danger that's so reassuring to hear, also yesterday from Noclue, that maybe symptoms just come and go a bit more than I'd realised/expected. I really can't remember from DD and clearly just a paranoid pshcho at the moment

So sorry to hear about the other miscarriages, but congratulations Danger on your healthy heartbeat and good luck on Tuesday Terilou

Oh Lunatic thanks! I'm so sorry you had such a difficult time, but hooray for your DS.

It's been so reassuring to know it's not just me, and that it can just be one of those things. I know nothing's certain until they're in your arms, but for now I'm feeling able to stay a bit more positive....

Thank you so much to everyone who has taken the time to post, it really has made a huge difference