Failing miserably at being a Blooming Pregnant Person.

[GizzyBoo]

Just that really.

I am 16 weeks tomorrow and far from feeling blooming I just feel completely rubbish about myself.
Nothing is really wrong. I am no longer sick, I don't have to work anything other than the odd supply shift and have a very supportive family. I just feel that I am getting it all wrong.

I have a constant headache. I am knackered, all of the time. I am needy and emotional and constantly crave attention and reassurance. Everything makes me either cry or get angry. This is not like me and I feel so out of control.
I am fat, spotty and have lank hair. My clothes don't fit right, yet I can't bring myself to spend money on new ones. I just feel so guilty.

All I want to do is be left alone to wallow in self pity....yet when everyone does just that I sob because I am being ignored and no one cares!!!
I feel so guilty when I can see hubby and the kids tiptoeing around me trying their best not to say the wrong thing. That just makes me feel worse.

What the fuck on earth is wrong with me?? Why all the woe is me feelings?? I am not new to this. This is #4!!

I seriously need someone to come round and give me a kick in the fanjo and tell me to get a grip

I'm still waiting to bloom and dd is now 13 months. Have now decided its a myth that women bloom during pregnancy

yep, it's a myth designed to make pregnant women feel better about themselves when they look like whales and feel like sh**. Not really working for me either. I find looking a baby clothes on the internet and in shops (no need to buy, just look, it's cheaper that way) helps though. Or having a good whinge, that works too. And counting the days.

Oh god!

looks for bawling eyes out emoticon

The geekette definition of bloom: Feeling the same as you did pre-pregnancy for a few hours :)

Don't despair! I have notied that as pregnancy goes by baby-brain helps forget the hard times. So sometimes I feel like the past and present are just all rosy and I'll be damned if I dare look truth in the eye!

You must be tired if you've already got 3 dcs!
Are you getting enough sleep?
Eating well?
Gentle exercise?
Drinking plenty of water?
Getting any time to relax or time just for yourself?

I have been feeling like a very frumpy pregnant woman so I've managed to sort my hair out a bit and I'm now trying to sort out my skin. I'm going to try oil cleansing method and regular toning and moisturising.
I'm eating healthy and getting out for walks. It all seems to be helping.

I bloomed with dc1 as I had time to relax! Not when you have other dcs. I have fond memories of lazy afternoons drinking tea, eating cake and watching true-life-made-for-tv movies. Sigh.

Geekette that is something I shall be looking forward to!

exexe I really can't use the excuse of the other 3 wearing me out as 2 of them are teenagers (13, 15) and the youngest is 9. They are great and are being a huge help. They are also all out of the house from the hours of 8:15 until 4:15 5 days a week

Thunder bless you for remembering.
I stepped away from the thread for a bit as my moping was beginning to grate on my own nerves! I still love the fact I am pregnant and have a wee fluttery button in my belly, when I am being huggled, and cherished and am not left alone and am not expected to move I still cant bare to be apart from OH and feel so needy and dependent.

My mood changes from 1 second to the next. I guess I am just confused by all the new feelings and the feeling of not being in control of them.

I am gonna be naughty and go and enjoy the last of the sun in the garden with OH and a wee beer

Aww well I'm not pregnant or a mum but it sounds to me as tho you should be huggled by your husband and you should ask him for that, this may be the last time you are pg so try and have a lovely one if poss and get your needs met, there's no shame in that. x

Awwwww something that is a lovely thing to say.....thank you xx

Eat more cake Gizzy! You will feel better soon, given enough hugs.

Total sympathy to you OP. Did you feel like this last time? I never bloomed before and I dont expect to this time.

Im 12wks with #2 and am a moody hag. I just cant control it and normally I am fairly good and rising above a bad mood.

Something speaks (lovely) sense and pinpan is a genius about the cake

lets share a virtual slice and ?

Ladies you are all brilliant.....thank you.

Today's mood has not been helped by waking up at 2am to a full on migraine that didn't allow me to go back to sleep and then spending a busy morning doing supply in pre-school!

I am going to make myself a cup of tea, eat cake and then put myself to bed. I am officially off duty for the rest of today

Hi Gizzy - like Thunderbolt was wondering where you'd gone from our Oct thread and found you here!

I hope the migraine didn't last too long and the bed rest yesterday really helped.

See you back over there soon I hope

Gizzy I'm grumpy too! And DP dared to mention that I had 2 slices of cake today. He is still alive, just!
I am just seriously grumpy and feeling really sorry for myself and knowing I should get a grip makes me feel even worse because I can't!

Hope you enjoyed your beer! I'm eating proper peanut butter and jam on toast! Not quite the same

I've been told I'm blooming - as far as I can tell it's code for fat and blotchy lol I'm 20 weeks btw

Oh I somehow missed the migraine and work bit.
Share my lemon drizzle cake since DP is being so rude about my consumption! 3rd children and I look huge at 12 weeks!