is making me feel fed-up and sick....how about you?
This is DC2 for me and I think I'm about 8-9wks. With DC1 I had what I thought was morning sickness. Now I know that was nothing! I feel really sick most of the time. Sometimes having something to eat helps, sometimes it doesn't.
I'm so exhausted all the time. I'm working full-time and I'm knackered. I know it will pass and I'll soon start feeling better but right now I feel like shit!
And I'm worried about everything.
I'm worried what we will do for money when baby is here and I've not forgotten the awful back pain/lack of sleep/long painful recovery from em. section/the indigestion/cracked nipples/PND/what labour pains felt like etc etc.
I still don't know for definite why I had to have a section in the 1st place. I was given a reason on the day but given a different one when I went through the hospital liaison service a few years later to try and find out what happened and now I've got a different one again from my new MW. She has suggested the reason I was given wasnt a reason enough on it's own for an em. section.
How can 3 different people = 3 different reasons?
Surely it's not a matter of opinion? There must have been a reason(s).
I feel my MW isn't taking my request for an elective section this time seriously. When I got upset, she suggested I maybe ought to have medication to deal with the depression it has given me 
FFS - she had a newly pregnant, worried woman infront her feeling confused and upset that she's not being understood. Why was it a surprise to her that I had a few tears over the whole thing? 
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DH and I have discussed this a lot over the past few years. He doesn't want me 'trying' a 'normal birth' (whatever one of those is!) and then going through it all again anyway when it could have been avoided this time round, especially as we don't know why I had so many problems before.
DD's birth was bad enough I couldn't face the idea of going through it all again for years so now there's a big(ish) age gap and I feel so much older this time round 
The spare room needs sorting out. The house needs decorating. We've got a dog this time. more complications [sigh]
On the plus side I can't wait to have that little person sitting on my knee pulling that face they do when they're being winded and to smell the smell they have on the top of their heads. We can't wait to have my scan and get the pictures and to have cuddles when baby is here.
This will be our last DC so me and DH want to enjoy every minute.
So many ups and downs.....wish the hormones would settle and let me think clearly
sorry to have a moan