Pregnancy 5, everything crossed but the doctors are already sending me round the bend!

[aMuminwaiting]

I previously had the thread: 4 MCs, clexane next time and am scared. I got my positive result on Saturday. I did an internet cheapie and the line was barely visible but I rushed out and got the clearblue digital which put me at 3-4weeks. Was due on today. I've been doing the cheapies since then in the hope they'd go darker but they haven't. I'm worried my HCG levels aren't going up or the pregnancy has already stopped. I was quite calm before getting the positive but then it all went crazy.
First I couldn't get appointment with the out of hours GP until 6.50pm, my Dad kept calling me at the hospital even though I'd told him what was happening. The GP laughed when I said "no I didn't realise I had to ring around chemists to find a stockist" and we had to rush to a place before they closed?who did not have it. So I was 40mins late for my birthday dinner with friends and family (including my older brother who'd come from Somerset and I see maybe once a year). Tried another two chemists Sunday and finally got it but GP only given me enough for four days so spent all of yesterday trying to get through to the hospital and my own GP. The hospital finally called me back about 5 o'clock?when I was in the bath and they wouldn't talk to DH despite me carrying his baby and him being my DH etc?. anyway I have to go to the hospital tomorrow which is about an hour away to get more clexane and then the following Wednesday for my first blood test. Never got a call back from the doctors despite needing to get booked in for prenatal care. Great start isn't it! My Dad said I'm moving the needle too much which is why I'm bruising so badly but I thought it would be like his diabetes injections and be spring loaded. The push down top is stiff so once I've got the needle all the way in it's quite hard to push the plunger down without moving the needles a bit. I'm hoping they give me a different type tomorrow or I'll look like a blueberry soon!
I will go anywhere and do anything to have this baby but I wish the hospitals and surgery were a bit more on the ball and didn't leave me hanging all the time. They are the ones that stress me out and when I do see them they say stuff like "well just relax, it doesn't do you any good worrying".

Best of luck, can you take the prescription to Boots? They can normally get it in the same day. My GP has agreed to 30 days supply at a time (initially 10 which was ridiculous). Don;t worry about booking in just yet, you can wait until 6/7 weeks.

Don;t worry about internet cheapies, I find them very unreliable indeed and can you ask your GP about getting HCG tested 48 hrs apart? This is a much accurate measure than trying to compare tests. You should ask for a scan at 6 weeks to confirm the pregnancy is interuterine (not ectopic) as that can be very dangerous whilst on clexaen.

On the bruising front, very little you can do to be honest, I have some days when it goes in nicely no problems and others where I get a massive bruise. If its not going in, don;t force it and find another location would be my top tip.

And best of luck!!

Sounds like a nightmare, hope you get sorted soon, and as for the clexane bruising is just one of those things im afraid, the needles have got quite a wide bore its nothing to do with your technique some days you wont bruise some days you will

Good Luck

Don't worry about the line, mine never got darker and I've a 10 month old to prove it.
Don't get in a flap. It won't do any good!

Hi Muminwaiting congrats on the pregnancy and sorry to hear it's been a stressful beginning.
Have you had any guidance at all from Haematology nurse about injection technique? If not, push for it as soon as you can get an appointment at the hospital.
I echo the other comments about bruising - mine has got much better as the pregnancy has progressed, no idea why, but to start I had some doozies. Make sure you pinch, go straight in (I find holding it like you're stabbing yourself keeps the thumb free), push plunger down slowly - a count of 10 - and all the way to the click.
I'm doing insulin injections too, and they're MUCH easier than clexane ones, the needles are so fine in comparison. I'm in NZ now, and the ones they have here as standard aren't spring loaded - I don't think it makes much difference though, you just have a bare needle to withdraw and dispose of rather than the bulky encased ones. Still hurts and bruises every so often.

Hope the next few days settle down for you. Are you on aspirin as well as clexane? Very best of luck for this pregnancy, the early weeks are horrendous and you just need to find a way to get through them from one appointment to the next. Impossible to relax so don't beat yourself up for feeling stressed, just do you what you need to get through. Huge shoulder squeeze from me.

Thanks everyone, especially for the shoulder squeeze :) I am on aspirin too yes. I've been taking it since I ovulated. I had to go to two different boots before I got it and couldn't wait for it to be ordered in because I was told to do it straight away. At least if I go to the specialist blood department tomorrow I know I'll get the right thing. They say I have to have all my blood count tests done there because the other hospitals always balls it up (good to know). I got an email a few minutes ago from my surgery saying they were unable to call me as were the blood department so there must be a fault on the line! Erm no, I was sitting next to the bloody thing all day and the blood people did get through to me. Why is it always something we've done? Why can they never say "oh sorry, we are a bit rubbish'. I know I should call again to get an early scan booked but I've already stopped a dog from being squished under a lorry this morning and feel the rest of the day should be just doing normal things.

Ps did everyone else find that people's reactions were totally underwhelming? I know everyone's scared I'll lose this baby too and every now and then I get an overwhelming panic like I'm just about to go over the top on a roller coaster. But I was hoping for a little bit more "yay". I really feel this is my best chance and I've done everything I can to prepare my body.

Yup - but then thinking back I can't think of a reaction from other people that would have been 'right' iyswim. Too happy, and I would have felt too jinxed as there's still no guarantee on meds, too low key and I felt noone had any faith in my body, too blasé and I felt the extent of my fear wasnt being acknowledged. It's just an impossible situation for everyone, but I think you just have to trust that everyone around you is desperately hoping that it works out for you this time and desperately afraid that it won't. I actually didn't tell anyone with this pg (except dh) until my mother asked straight out what an appt was for. Didn't tell my 2 BFFs who knew all about history, until about 14 weeks and still aren't great at talking about it (despite huge bump making it so very obvious).
Hope tomorrow's arrangements go smoothly.

i have no experience of this but wanted to say congratulations it does sound as if you have no a long journey ahead but i wish you all the best, no experience of internet cheapies but i know cbd tests are hard to convince your pregnant so 3-4 weeks is good, does this tie in with your dates? i got 2-3 one day and 3-4 the next and turned out it was twins :) definitely push for an early scan so you.can be reassured all is ok, good luck for today :)

...and so the paranoia begins. Just nipped to the loo before heading to the hospital and there was one teeny spot of pink blood on the loo roll. Nothing since but am really scared. This is how it's started with me (apart from the last mmc). I know there's nothing I can do at this point. I mentioned it to the nurse today and said do I need to stop the clexane as soon as I start bleeding because I had one spot today and she just pulled that face, you know the one that says oh this one's doomed. Then she said well if you're worried get a scan. Easier said than done. I have had lots of stretching sensations and dull cramp feeling that only last for seconds then goes. I'm hoping it's just a spot of blood from things moving around in there. Oh this has to work!