I feel like I have no feelings for DF..preg hormones???

[caija]

Hi everyone, just as the title says really :( don't know what is going on with me atm.
Me n DF haven't been together long and I'm now pregnant with my DC3. Things were great before I got pregnant, this could also be the honeymoon of the relationship too?
The last couple of weeks I have felt like I am making excuses not to see him etc, questioning myself if I fancy him or not, feel like he's nothing
But an added pressure to me :( I am so scared that these are my real feelings and I'm gonna end up on my own with 3 dc. I've been Gettn early scans as I have had 3mc's before and I haven't let him come to any, I don't feel I can, I like to deal with it on my own, until I know all is ok. I am 8/9 weeks now. Going on scan, 8 weeks, going On last period, 9 weeks. My DF doesn't yet live with me and everytime I
Imagine him doing so, I Panic. I can't even imagine it. He is meant to be coming over at two today, I'm just beside myself with nerves and feeling like I don't want him here.
This is driving me crazy.... I don't know if this is my true feelings or hormones..has anyone felt like this? Or has any advice? I feel physically sick thinking bout the way I'm feeling. :(

Bump :( :(

I think I went through phases like that with DH when pregnant (things are great again now).. but at the same time there's nothing like the gravity/reality of bringing a baby into the world together to make you re-examine a relationship!

so I don't know, I don't think anyone can tell you either way if it's real or hormonal, time will tell, which is no help I know! sorry!

I'm soo scared... I do have history of severe pnd and antenatal depression, also was diagnosed with severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder after my Ds, 5