I'm an irrational and possibly unstable mess- is this normal?

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Hey everyone. I've namechanged because I'm so embarased at what Ive become lately. I'm 37+1 with DC1 and over the last week I have become really angry and tearful for no real reason. Everything DH does gets to me. The slightest thing he does wrong I stew over. I'm really passive agressive. Like he won't offer me a lift to station (10 min walk) but I won't ask him either. Then I get angry that he doesnt offer and call him a thoughtless prick.

I got angry with PILs, SIL and BIL for no good reason either at the weekend. They said sonmeething I thought was rude and I went postal. Looking back, it wasnt that bad, it was just chit chat.

I'm also terrified at how baby will change everything and dreading trying to please my DM and PILs all at the same time. I can't tell my DM about getting pissed off with DH becuase she will only side with me as she has never liked anyone I've been with and picks fault really easily.

I am wondering if this is just my hormones and if the kind of sick misery i feel right now is normal at this stage? Shouldn't I be excited and joyful?

I'm so ashamed of the way I'm behaving.

I think it's pretty normal, tbh - one of my pregnant friends got very grrrr in late pregnancy! The important thing is that you recognise you're being irrational and unreasonable toward DH (sorry!) and you can use that moderate your reactions (or at least apologise afterwards).

I'm terrified of how things will change too, but one of the comforting things I've ever heard (right here on MN) was when someone pointed out that yes, it's difficult, but they (and I) have never met anyone that actually regrets having DCs - so the changes will be worth it. You just have to sort of put your worries in a box in the cupboard and ignore them, and get through the last few weeks of your pregnancy as stress-free as you can :)

I was an absolute cow in my late pregnancy! Poor DP. I put it down to a mix of hormones, stress, anticipation - its a difficult time, waiting for your LO to arrive. I wouldn't be too worried about it. However, like popcorn, its probably helpful to try and apologise/explain to your DH when you are feeling calmer and reassure him that its not him, its just your hormones.

Thank you both so much for your replies.
I was saying horrible, stupid things and I KNEW I was being a tit. But I couldn't stop myself. It's like tantrums FFS. But I'm 30..

Me too I'm afraid, complete bitch. I think i should be sent to a desert island for the last weeks (i'm 38 wks). I can't control my anger, I detest myself for it because I am not normally at all like this. Its ilke the worlds worst PMT. It is good to know others feel this way too though, I always thought I was the only one.

Oh thank God. I thought I'd just become a horrible person. (Ok im not normally the reincarnation of mother Theresa or anything but I'm usually quite decent).

Bloody hormones have a lot to answer for.
I feel so much better now I read the replies on this thread. I'm still pissed off at the world but I kindof know that it will pass.

And you're right about no regrets. I think the fear of the unknown and the massive change can be too much sometimes. But then I know having a healthy baby (all being well) is something many people can only dream of and I feel ungrateful.

Bloody Catholic guilt.

Ooh I was just like this at the end of both my pregnancies.

One time I accidentally 'discovered' that DP had gone for an incredibly quick pint after work one Friday without telling me and went into total histrionics about him having LIED to me and that this was the beginning of the end.. etc etc.

All you can do is apologise and don't worry about it too much.

The change is massive when you have a baby so you're sensible to think about it. But along with the stress and tiredness and weirded-out feeling, I also felt massive relief at not being pregnant any more with both my babies.

Good luck with everything!

I was exactly the same at the end as well, on the day I went into labour I was doing a big shop with dp, got to the checkout and the checkout lady said "hello how are you" type conversation and I burst into tears and had to go and sit in the car while dp sorted shopping!! Was an emotional wreck but it does go once the baby is here