I feel like in loosing the plot. Help me

[2wwmadness]

To cut a long story short. I'm 29 weeks pregnant and so down. Please tell me I'm not hurting my son.
We are re locating. Dh relocated in november. I stayed in our home till my mat leave started this week. He stayed in new city with my family.
He works a high pressured job and looks after his mentally ill mum from a distance and regularly travels 2 hours to sort her out.
I've left my friends to go and sit in my family's house on my own. With no car in the middle of nowhere. Very rural area.
We have no house. Dh leaves the house at 6:30 and is home at 9:30 six days a week. That's when he isn't going out for drinks after work with his new friends.
I feel scared. I've convinced myself dh is cheating (he's not) that I'm going to be on my own. I can't enjoy anything. I just want to sleep. I cry all the time and don't sleep in the nights. I've had 2 panic attack and I feel so lonley. I'm going to see a dr tomorrow. Has anyone felt like this? What did you do?

Hello 2ww

I'm not surprised you're feeling this way. The upheaval you have experienced would knock anyone for six, never mind someone in their third trimester, already coping with all the stresses of that in itself.

I think pregnancy can produce heightened emotions and fear of the unknown. You also sound really lonely and isolated. I think your response to all of this is normal but you may be experiencing pregnancy depression too. Have a look at This Guardian article on that very subject.

Also, you're on maternity leave, which some people find a shock to the system. Can you join any local mum and baby groups now? How about the NCT?

Good luck OP. I think (and hope) you'll be fine and things will get better.