Apologies if this is TMI. I'm not sure where else to turn.
On Sunday morning I went for an (non-strenuous) walk with DP and felt a little discharge come out into my knickers. Assumed it was the usual white stuff and didn't think anything of it. Then a couple of hours later, on the way to do the weekly shop, I felt an ache around my left ovary and in my lower-middle abdomen. It was uncomfortable but not horribly painful and went away within a few minutes. This pain isn't unusual as I had open surgery to remove a cyst on my left ovary a couple of years ago and often get pains around the scar tissue.
I got home, went to the toilet, and saw that the discharge in my knickers was pinkish-brown. Quite a bit of mucassy stuff - not as heavy as a period but enough to freak me out - came off in the tissue. Went upstairs, laid on bed, and burst into tears while DP called midwife.
She was really nice and told me it was not unusual, to take things easy and to go to the hospital if the cramps became very painful and prolonged and the blood became fresh, heavy and started clotting. She also said that, if I was still worried, I could call up and arrange an early scan to put my mind at rest.
That was two days ago. I haven't been at work as I can't concentrate on anything and am tired and nauseous (which is crap, but gives me hope as I still have morning sickness). Intermittent period-like cramps. They are not here all the time and are never very bad - I've been having them a couple of times a day since before I found out I was pregnant and have been told I just have a sensitive pelvic area and this again is perfectly normal as long as I'm not in real pain, which I'm not.
The discharge hasn't stopped and is really freaking me out now. It doesn't come out into my knickers, but tissues come away brown and, when I've rolled up a tissue and pushed it slightly inside like a tampon (sorry for that mental image!) it has come away with stringy brown stuff on it. There has been a little bit of pinkish mucas mixed in with the brown on Sunday and this morning but no fresh blood.
I'm booked in for an early scan tomorrow morning and am not sure how I am going to wait that long -- I feel horribly depressed and unable to function properly, convinced that I am losing the baby :(
Has anyone else had these symptoms and gone on to have a healthy pregnancy? I know I am clinging to a desperate hope yet, but I don't know what I should be feeling -- grief or hope. Last night I even decided to pretend I knew the sex, so that I could picture the baby and send it encouraging thoughts, which sounds absolutely nuts now I write it down. Just don't know what to do until then.