presentation scan yesterday. We are going to try an ECV tomorrow, which I know has a 50% success rate, but I want to have my decision straight in my head incase this doesn't work. Thing is I am totally devastated by the idea of having a c - section and, as such, am concerned that I am being swayed by what I want over what will be safest for bubs.
Personally I would prefer to try for a vaginal breech delivery. I have a big pelvis, high pain threshold and good endurance but this is my first (so pain and endurance not tested for childbirth) and bubs is measuring quite large. She is bum down with legs up by her head. I don't know why I am so anti c - section either. I'm not bothered about having an operation, not squeemish at all so would actually probably want to watch, and I'm not that bothered about not being able to have a 'natural' childbirth - it's not a feeling of failure by any means. I think I'm just concerned about afterwards. I don't want to be separated from the baby soon after she's born, really don't want to be stuck in hospital for a few days and reeaally don't want to be limited for weeks after we get home. I know all of this could happen with a vaginal birth anyway so, deep down, I know I am being irrational.
DH would definitely prefer me to have a c - section. He went through a nightmare birth with his ex and their first child - very premature, emergency c - section, mum and baby nearly died. He's being really supportive of whatever I want to do but I know he's scared of the prospect of a vaginal breech delivery, possible emergency c - section and problems for the bubs or me. I don't know whether I could actually put him through the worry. I've also spoken with his ex (who is extremely supportive too) and she has assured me that a c -section won't be that bad and that she would opt for one given the circumstances.
I think I just need reassurance that a c - section is the safest way to go and, as such, the right decision to make. I do know that I would be absolutely devastated if I opted for a vaginal birth and something went wrong. I guess I just don't want to take the 'easy' option for no other reason than it's the done thing. Sorry if this all seems redundant given that the ECV might work - I just don't want to leave my decision until tomorrow when I will probably be tired, sore and emotional.