My body is falling apart! (a moan...)

[ardenbird]

Gah! So I've been going around on crutches with SPD and hurting, but coping. But now it feels like my body is just falling apart around me: I developed pregnancy-induced carpal tunnel last week (I was not even aware that was possibility!), which I'm sure the crutch-use is not helping, and now this weekend I did something to my left arm (and I really hope that is what it is, and not another pregnancy thing that will be with me until the end) such that it hurts constantly and I can't lift it at all. DH had to hook my bra and tie back my hair this morning! I didn't even attempt jewellery or anything other than the most basic pony tail (I usually wear a braid or bun), and look pretty ratty. I can still crutch around by locking my elbow on that side, but it's maddeningly slow going, and hurts.

I got down on the floor last night to do the exercises the physio gave me, and it took a good 10 minutes to figure out a way to get back up. And I probably spent half an hour trying to extract myself from the bathtub before calling for DH -- I was actually almost out, but couldn't do the last rotate on the stool to get my legs over the rim, as my arm had no strength.

My mum worked until the day before I was born, 5 days past her due date. She had no problems. My aunt was actually part way through a wilderness hike when she went into labour with her twins! (She made it back, barely.) Why can't I be like that?

I'm 33 weeks and just terrified more bits of me will keep failing. I've got 4 weeks and 1 day left of work and I've got a bunch of physical things left to do, and was tempted to stay home and telecommute today in the hopes that my arm will get better but what if it isn't a pulled muscle but instead is something like the carpal tunnel and will just get worse? So I'm trying to do as much as I can before things become impossible, and it is just all so frustrating!

Sorry, but I just felt the need to moan, and I can't really at work (put on a smile, "I'm doing slow but fine") and DH has heard enough of it already.

Oh arden, i can feel your pain! can you not reduce your hours in these last few weeks or start ml early, you will just get more fed up with each day if you are anything like me!
Im only 16 weeks but had spd last time and this time made much worse by disk and nerve problems, i couldn't get upstairs without sobbing last night, then cried myself to sleep because i realised how much worse it will get and how long i still have left DH is also a bit blind to it now as he has had 4yrs of me being in a state of constant pain/discomfort.

I really think you need to sod work if you can, or definatly reduce time there, and try and focus on yourself a little, maybe go swimming, or book some massage therapy/acupuncture etc.

And you can moan on here till the cows come home, we all understand.

Just sending you some virtual . I've had SPD with all pregnancies and was on crutches with the last one (and will probably be with this one) so you have my sympathies. It can be a very long and hard few months.
The carpal tunnel and working for another month is all adding to the feelings of 'falling apart' -- no wonder you're having a moan!
Chin up. Easier said than done I know. I am only 21 weeks but already dreaming about being somewhat 'normal' again. Just wanted to wish you well -- remember that we all shine in different ways :)

Thanks for the nice words, ladies! :)

OTTMummA, ack, sorry to hear you're in so much pain already at 16 weeks. At least my SPD didn't get bad until 24 weeks...

Thanks for the ecstatica :)

And now I've done it again wavering at 4:15pm if I should call DH and ask for ride home or go start something, it shouldn't take that long... Note to self: next time, go home!!! Just called DH to warn him I probably won't be done until 7:30, at the earliest. Just want to cry and give up, but can't I work in a bio lab, and I can't leave without finishing without irrevocably destroying things that took weeks to create. I thought if I did a little something I'd feel better, but that backfired badly... sigh.

DH said we'd have take away for dinner, and he'll order it. So I have that to look forward to :)