13 weeks pregnant and seriously depressed, need help

[vix1980]

Well the title says it all really, haven't stopped crying for the past 2 weeks, I felt fine when I first found out then waiting for the scan I was consumed with sickness and tiredness so didn't have much time for anything else.

Now its all real and I've told all the family I just feel so alone and empty, I haven't stopped crying all week, I'm just not excited 1 bit, and its really bad cos everyone I've told has been over the moon for us, my partner is thrilled and I hate seeing him look upset when he looks at me I just can't help the way I feel, he asks me to explain how I am feeling but how do you explain to your partner of 11 yrs you wish you were dead so it was all over with, I really don't think I can cope with feeling this way anymore, I've suffered from depression before and that was bad but this is 10 times worse, I constantly feel trapped and I hate it, getting pregnant was the worst mistake I've ever made.

I would make a gp appointment and get the support you need. I hope you get some help and things improve for you. :(

i think you should call your midwife first thing tomorrow and go and get some support. pregnancy brings out all sorts of emotions in us, don't feel like you have to feel a certain way. Try & talk to your partner or just cry on him and get some cuddles.
Thunk you need to speak to someone & workout why your feeling like this.
All my love,
Hayley xx

Hi Vix,
I've just lost a long message I wrote for you. But I will try to repeat it as I can't go knowing you are feeling like this.

I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you are feeling like this. But please know that you are not alone, that people care, I care and there is NO correct way to feel. Pregnancy is not a magic cure to life, but nor is it the end. I know pregnancy can feel like it takes over everything, but YOU are still important, you are still free to feel how you feel, to make choices, to make changes to your life, to get help for yourself, to care about yourself not just the pregnancy and to beat your depression.

If you feel like you want to die PLEASE call your GP tomorrow first thing. Don't suffer in silence and keep talking to your dp but please also seek professional help. The fact that you are pregnant should mean there is more help on offer and you should hopefully get access to it quicker.
Keep us updated, will be thinking of you.
Kate

Hi,

Thanks for your messages, to be honest it did help a bit to get that off my chest, my dp really doesn't understand my depression I tell him I'm lonelyp he tells me to go and visit people, that's all he offers really he's never understood so I don't expect him to now, he just can't work out why I'm not excited but then neither can I.

I've made an appt with the doctor for this thursday, all I want to do till then is stay in bed and sleep and not have to face anyone, I'm meant to be working from home I just don't have the energy, I'm not eating properly either which I know doesn't help but I'm just never hungry and when I am can't manage a full meal just some soup now and again, I just feel my life is slipping out of my hands and I can't see it getting better, once the baby is born I may still feel like this or worse only with some1 else to look after. I can't look after myself right now god knows how ill cope with someone else, I'm 31 but right now feel like a scared 5 year old

Hi, That is great you have made the appointment. Take care of yourself until then, try not to put pressure on yourself and just take it easy. Pregnancy and life can be scary, but hopefully you will feel better and more able to cope soon. Look after yourself, xx.

you are not abnormal or alone - antinatal depression is a really common problem for lots of women. It's not talked about as much as postnatal depression but there are LOTS of women who feel like you do. It's horrible but you can treat it. Look at this old thread for some advice - it might be worth starting a new one yourself for some support? www.mumsnet.com/Talk/antenatal_clubs/121845-antenatal-depression-support-each-other/AllOnOnePage